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Hello Diary!

Had an awesome day today. Stayed in the Hospital from 2pm till 9pm. almost the whole day. My Lil sister is in the Hospital and because I got no plans, I decided to visit her. :) I know, I'm a kind brother. Hehe.

Actually, I'm supposed to watch my friends rehearsal but due to not knowing where is the place, I decided to go along with my sister instead. I know it is boring doing nothing in the hosp. I can feel the boredom coming to me. But, I just want to take a little look at my Lil sister condition. She is recovering. I'm glad that she is doing fine.

Hosp is not a good place to stay actually. I rather stay at home instead. :) LOL. after which, we went home. I was so tired and thought of going to sleep but when I saw my laptop, I rushed to it and start MSN.

Now, I'm blogging. :) Tomorrow will mark the end of March and I'm so looking forward for April. Wad will be happening in April, I'm not that sure. But I will expect lots and lots of fun! :) Working on Friday and Sunday. :) KL trip next week and I can't wait! Yeah! :)

Tomorrow is rehearsal and I am very happy and excited. Abg Khai is joining us for the trip. Yay! to those that I did not link, please leave a comment at the tagboard. I might overlook it as I'm very busy. Will link you all very soon!

Huda called me just now. Haha. We will meet up tomorrow okay. :) go dating eh? haha. the picture above was taken by Azyan (the noose partner) on Saturday. :) haha! & I grabbed it from her blog. Cool uh.

as you can see from above picture, that we are of course talking about some issues that need to be settled ASAP. Thank God it has already been settled. :) i guess so. :) hopefully tomorrow training will be a fun and enjoyable one.

see you all! Good night! :) sweet dreams!

through all the bad times, I'll stick with you.
through all the good times, I'll be with you.
through all the emotions, I'll hug you.

Hello Diary!

Had a pleasant day today. Working as normal but went home early today. Meet up with the rest of my friends at Tanjong Pagar as Abg Hamzah is leaving for KL. have a safe trip k. We had lots and lots and lots of photos taken. Cameras flashing here and there. :) like we are one of the superstar!

I was not in the right mood in the early afternoon. Was feeling unwell maybe due to hot weather and I'm sick. Yes, sick. But so far, I'm feeling okay now. Just okay. I can't wait for tomorrow. :) must enjoy myself tomorrow.

Plans to go out with Sec Sch classmates have to be postponed to a later date instead. As everyone is busy with their own lives, I suggest we meet up when the right time comes alright? :) sorry to cause any inconvenience to all of you.

I know, I miss all my Sec Sch classmates. We will meet up soon, I promise. I am still trying my very best to memorise every single lines of the script. I'm trying. :)

I'm gonna cut my hair real soon! By Tuesday will be a short hair! :) Seriously, I'm sick of having long hair. Looks freaking ugly to me. :) haha.

Oh Sharks, results is coming in very soon. Very very soon. I can feel the pressure. I can sense it. :) oh my god. thoughts are running all over my mind. how do I fare? did I pass? will I get 3.5 and above? nervous.anxious.worried.

I really got to pass this semester. Seriously. Dear God, wish me the best of luck, please. :) everyone seems to like my character. Thank you so much guys! I won't let you all down! :)

Got to go now. Blog again soon okay! :) LOVE you ALL! :) Good night!

A minute pass, I'm missing you.
A second ticks, I'm wanting you.
An hour rings, I'm loving you.

Hello Diary!

Today Rehearsals were so energetic and full of hyper! :) although, I felt tired after all the dancing and script reading, I kept myself awake and make sure I'm not letting myself and others down. It was a wonderful Saturday and it is one of the best trainings we had. :)

It was great to see those familiar faces once again and had a great time together. Although, it is just 4 hours, it seems to me like 4 days. :) LOL. perhaps, I miss them a lot! actually, I can see the bonding we had now. & I'm happy to say that we all are one family that will stick throughout the whole journey together.

We finished our whole script today and everyone is happy for that. I can see that we all are improving and we did our best. But, there's always room for improvement. I'm still at the stage of memorising my lines and get into my character. :)

Due to the dance practice, I'm feeling super duper lethargic now. Never felt this tired before. Haha. Okay, wad's next? Actually, I can't wait for Vocal Training. :) really miss it. training is on Tuesday and I think I won't be going out with my friends. Sorry guys.

I can't wait for my results to come out and the trip to KL. :) haha. It will be fun, I guess. Production is left with 4 more months and we all must do our very BEST okay! :) hehe! come to think of it, I'm really excited for it and I can't wait wad will be in store for us! To the both of you, I miss you! :) hang out soon, Fina & Thameem!

Got to go now. Sleeping time. Haha. Good night!

Despite your playfulness, I still like you.
Despite your carelessness, I still want you.
Despite your egoism, I still love you.

HELLO DIARY!

Yesterday was the 2nd day of script reading and I'm so happy that I did my best. Friends told me that my image was totally different than the real me. Haha. I will try to nail it again and do the very best I can! :)

Before that, hang out with oh so lovely friends of mine. Hafiz H, Atiiyah, Luqman and Aidyl. We had a splendid day out together and it was so fun! Despite being bullied by Hafiz H and the rest, I still remain calm. Haha! We headed to Sakura for lunch and then went to Esplanade for some fresh air.

Hafiz H told us stories of his past and ghost stories. How he met ghost in Sarawak, his house etc. It was so super duper scary but fun. After which, we headed to MRT to go to Sembawang. We laughed, chat together and doing stupid stuffs. Haha. Hafiz H reaction was so wild when I want to throw my slippers at his face which I did not. LOL.

A baby did something unexpected to Hafiz H. Haha. Which we find it kinda cool. LOL. Then met Asyura, Asyraf, Zizie, Ratna, Azura at Sembawang. After the script reading, I went home and overslept in the bus that I missed my stop. Haha. As a result, I walked home. :)

So I really enjoyed my day yesterday. Looking forward for tomorrow. 4 hours of script reading, its gonna be a great day! Working today. :)

Got to go now, enjoy reading READERS! :)

To say I love you.
To say I miss you.
To say I need you.

Dear Diary.

In any minute, this BLOG will always be full of post. :) it is because I'm not working till Thursday! Haha. So, I will be blogging almost everyday. I read people's blog and each of them got each problems. I really mean it. Well, human beings got problems right? Its a fact that we cannot deny.

I got mine too. But its over and done with. :) I have been sleeping so late at night and wake up so late in the afternoon. Oh my god! Am I becoming just like my brother? Hell NO! :) Haha. My brother will be back from NS soon! Just for one day then he will go inside back. :)

I still have not yet memorise any lines from the Script that was given to me a few days back. For the first time, I got a lot of lines to read. It is a wonderful thing but am I prepared? I must be. I can't sit down and do nothing, right? I must do the best I can to make all of my Variasians proud!

Speaking of which, I can't wait for the training on Thursday. Hehe. It's gonna be a great day! I'm addicted to Wonder Girls song. Seriously, it's very nice to hear and I just wish I can learn their dance move! LOL. Nadzirah want to teach me, kan? LOL.

Is true that we cannot trust a friend let alone a stranger. They might just back stab us and gossip about us behind our back. I mean, we must be extremely careful and make sure we don't reveal any secret out to them. An English saying goes: Get close to your Enemies.

True enough. As I said earlier from my post, that its their mouths. A person that plays with fire, eventually get burnt. I have no rights to stop someone from gossiping about others. But, just wait and see how long can the person survive by gossiping. Haha.

I had a very very very delicious awesome wonderful dinner! LOL. Beef fried rice. Even though, it is just a normal dish, I still love every bit of it. I don't need a sumptuous dinner to satisfy my tummy. :)

I miss hanging out with my friends. Now, it is Holidays, they are much more busier than me. Let's meet up soon, alright. Bestie, I know you're feeling down right now. I wish I could help you but I myself not sure wad to do. Don't lose hope alright. I'm sure, you will succeed eventually one day! :) trust me. GOD will help those that help themselves.

March is coming to an end & April will soon arrive in a short period of time. Let just say March is not an awesome month for me. But, it is full of wonderful memories. Memories that I won't forget even it is just a day. :)

Got to go now. Haha. I will blog again. Maybe tomorrow. Just check out my blog okay. Hehe. Good night. :)

When the sun rise, I call you.
When the morning breaks, I chat with you.
When you feeling down, I'll be with you.

Dear Readers.

Well today, I'm not working. So, I stayed at home till now. It has been so long since I really stay at home. :) Usually, I will go out in the afternoon with friends. sis is still in hospital. will visit her soon. I miss her laughter. I really want her to recover. Nadeera, please recover okay.

So what will I be doing tomorrow? I guess, stay at home again? Haha. Or I will visit my sis in the hospital. I want to see how her condition is. :) see how lah. Oh yeah hanging out with friends this Thursday before heading myself to Rehearsal. :) hehe.

I already wrote down the outlets that I want to work at. Tampines Mall, Wisma Atria and Novena. Either 3 of them, I will be happy. But I would want to be at Tampines. So, I won't waste money on buses and furthermore so convenient. :)

But I also don't mind Novena. Never work there before. Wanna try. Haha. Wisma, okay lah not bad. Hehe. Anywhere they want to put me, I just work. I'm not fussy. It has been quite sometime that no one ask me whether I'm still working in Giordano until today. Haha.

Yeah, I still miss working there. A lot of beautiful and painful memories. I miss working in Whitesands, especially. That is my first working place. I know I should not dwell on the past but I really miss Giordano. If can, I would not want to quit. Never mind. I got Cotton On now. :)

Fina is sick. Rest well and take care of your health, girl. See you soon. Miss you. :) oh yeah, news really spread so fast. My colleagues know that I wanted to transfer to Wisma. Haha. Who told who eh? But that was last time. Now I don't know where I want to transfer to. Hehe.

My colleagues, has been treating me okay. Not good but alright. They still know that I exist. Haha. I would not want to assumed whether they are talking about me or not. I don't wish to create an unwanted scene. I'm not that sort of person. :)

But it is their mouths, anyway. So, I would not want to be bothered about anything. Let them say wad they want to say. As long as my conscience is clear, I would not take it too personal. :)

I will be very very busy with trainings and work. So, don't miss me yeah, readers. LOL. But, I will definitely blog as much as possible. Okay got to go now. Take care. :) good night!

When time flies, I miss you.
When clock strikes, I think of you.
When night comes, I dream of you.

HELLO READERS!

Was working today. Glad that the time flies so fast. It was packed. Packed with customers and stuffs. But it was a great day today. Well, at least for me. :) Not working tomorrow till Thursday. I have not yet memorise a single line from the Script. I need more time to really understand and memorise the lines. :) wish me luck.

I seriously can't wait for the renovation to start. So I can be able to work at other outlets temporary. :) Haha. But I would not want to move back to Parkway even after its renovation. I mean, its gonna be a mega store. A huge one. I can't work in a huge place. I will get tired easily. Haha. :)

Oh yeah, I got no plans at all this coming week. Guess, will stuck at home then. :) I am very full now. After eating chicken fried rice, I am no longer hungry. Haha. :) I want to go swimming one day. But too busy with stuffs.

I miss my secondary school mates, suddenly. :) random right. Haha. I mean, some of my friends will be going to NS this coming April. So before they go in, let's meet up alright. Haha. I still have pictures of my classmates which is not my friends anymore. & the memories came to my mind again. I want to let it go. I don't wish to remember about the past but it still came back.

What should I do? I can no longer face them. Even if we are having holidays, we will still face each other when school starts. I cannot run away from them but I don't wish to see their faces too. I really need to get out from that school ASAP. God, let this 2 semester ends quickly.

At times like this, I need you.
At times like this, I want you.
At times like this, I love you.

Hello DEARS!

Today was another great day! Script has been given out & I'm so happy with the script! :) haha. there are too many lines to memorise! Oh my god! & I hate my character here. Haha.

If you guys want to know why, do watch us on JULY. It will be the best Musical Ever! :) after the Script reading, proceed to Tampines to watch Aidil and Iskandar perform. I seriously impressed with both of them.

Especially Iskandar. He show the other side of him. Cannot believe he nail his character so well. & his partner, the guy he acted with is so GOOD. I mean, seriously. He can act as good as Iskandar too. & Of course Aidil. haha. :) Great Job guys! My 8 bucks is worth watching your show. Haha.

After that, headed back home. Was supposed to wait for Aidil and Iskandar but I guess Iskandar needs to spend time with his girlfriend, April. So we went home first. :) I bet April is so happy to have Iskandar in her life. Haha.

Okay, I have read the whole script. It is good. The storyline is perfect. Although, there are some grammatical errors but as long as we understand what the meaning is, we can just say it out. :) I just can't wait for the entire rehearsal. Dancing, Singing and Acting. All in one. It will be a perfect show. Haha.

But seriously, right now I really need to learn a lot of my character. Haha. Being a teacher for a first time. Oh my God. A challenging role indeed. But, just pray that I can nail it. :) my mum told me that my sister is in the stage of recovering.

Thank God. I want to see her smile again. Back to her normal self. :) Working tomorrow. Haha.
Ramon, my 2nd In Charge is impressed with my work. Thanks yeah. :) Both of my Managers want to monitor my work. I mean, its a good thing lah. :)

Okay tomorrow working , 1230 to 1830. :) weeee! I think I want to visit my sister tomorrow after work. See how. I can't wait for the TRIP next month! Looking forward to it! :)

finally, I realised I need you.
please stay, will you?
please..

Hello Dears!

Alright. Yesterday training was fun but tiring. Expect the unexpected. Dancing is just not my thing but It was great! :) thanks Haizad, the Choreographer. & Hafiz H came! Lol. Surprise to see you. Glad to see you. Haha. Meet up soon.

Script will be coming tomorrow. Haha. Scared, nervous, anxious and worried. All this is in my mind right now. Just don't know what will happen. Haha. Is it Vocal Training tomorrow? Haha. Can't wait to sing! :)

I went for the audition yesterday. It was good. I manage to read the lines. I'm not sure whether I get this role or not. But its alright. Failure is a mother of success. Hopefully, I get it. :)

I'm not feeling myself lately. I'm breaking down. Its like I wanna cry but I just could not shed a tears. There's too much problems in my head now. I don't know who to turn to and who to talk to. All I need is a helping hand and a shoulder to lean on. I'm tired. Seriously, shagged.

I'm still deciding whether to quit my job or continue staying on. I just could not made up my mind. I need a job. & now, I have one. I should not quit right? But there's too much problems at work too.

I feel like there's no life in working there. Colleagues has been treating me coldly. I don't know what I did that makes you all seems to dislike me and distance yourself. You all have been making assumptions thinking that I did something bad and for sure, news has been spreading around.

Its the same case that happens to me and my classmates. Out of the sudden, they seems to attacked me and assuming that I'm at fault. I just could not understand. Is it really my fault? Or is it you guys pretending to be my friend and suddenly show your true colours in front of me?

I'm seriously tired. Tired of being the good guy. I just need to accept the bad luck I have now. I want to let go of my past but it is so hard to do so. A past can be forgotten but can never be erase. True enough.

Right now, I need a hug. Any kind of hug will do. Maybe, I need a rest. A rest to calm myself down. :) Working later. I'm not looking forward to it but just do my work.

& to Aidil and Iskandar, all the best for your show tomorrow. We will be coming down to support you guys! :)

Hello Bloggers!

Was working yesterday. Seriously, I miss all the colleagues there. Haha. It was fun meeting them again and talking with each other plus laughing as well.

Hafiz H. Don't be sad okay. You have us as Friends. Just move on even though the pain is still inflicted in your heart. I believe there are much more better girls out there for you. Wish you all the best. Meet up soon tau! :)

I actually envy those that are in relationships. But I just could not stand when they start to quarrel making a small issues into a bigger one. Its true that every relationships has their ups and downs in life. Some just pretend like they did not fight but some take it as a personal thing leading to suicide and stuffs.

If you cannot take any break ups, please do not ever start a relationship. Its a stupid thing for you to just feeling hurt and started to do stupid stuffs hurting yourself. A relationship needs sacrifices, trust, understanding, respect. But sometimes is the opposite.

Nowadays, not only guys are the one that break up with the girls. Its the opposite. What goes around comes around. Its a modern days now. You won't see a guys chasing after girls or girls chasing after guys. Its both chasing after each other. Its the same to relationships.

Girls can easily break up with their boyfriends in order to be with another one or they find that their boyfriends can't live to their expectations.

As for guys, they will break up with their girlfriends because they find their girlfriends unattractive, love to stalk them when they are alone or they tend to be too emotional.

Due to some of this reasons, I'm afraid to even start a relationship or to even think of having one. Its true that all of us will have our own life partner. But it takes time. We cannot rush things up. & I will just keep on looking for one. But right now, I'm more to being single. :)

Okay, enough of relationships.
Making me headache. :)

Today got training. & I postpone my audition to today. :) My Lil sis is admitted to hospital again. I really want to see her recover. Seeing her in this state, just makes me wanna cry. I love you, sis. Please recover okay.

I got to go now. Want to eat my breakfast. Blog again soon. :)

HELLO BLOG!

Love my new skin? haha. don't get jealous over it, will ya? Yours will be much more better, I guess. & by the way I'm so happy. Haha. I get my cheque already. Need it by tomorrow. Hopefully by tomorrow the money will go inside my bank account! :)

I'm working tomorrow. Haha. I have not been working at that place for so long. Miss it so much! & after that I have an audition. I'm so damn nervous. Eventhough I did attend the audition last year, but it still scares the hell out of me. I was not selected last year. Not sure whether this time, my luck will change. :)

My Lil sis is still suffering. Doctor says that she has chest problem and because of that phlegm is stuck inside her lungs. Due to that she have breathing difficulties. Poor sis. I miss the old her. Do recover yeah.

Some people might not know the condition I'm going through now. Some might think that I'm happy but in the inside, I'm suffering. I even smile for the sake of smiling. I'm just pretending to be happy to avoid people asking questions and stuffs. I just don't wish to ask for sympathy from anybody.

Because of that, I just pretend nothing has happened. Guess, I need to stand on my own feet now. The ladder of success might be full of obstacles and hardships but I will persevere till the end. I won't give up just yet. Not anymore.

Surprisingly, when I saw those faces that I long to see, I just could not stop but smile. Perhaps, these people are the one I can depend on and share my stories with. I'm just happy to have them as my new family. Thank you so much for being so concern. :)

Oh sharks, its 1 am again. Why do I always blog at night? haha. turning into a owl is it? LOL. I got 4 more hours to sleep. Better rest my eyes now or else I will look like a Panda tomorrow Morning! :) haha.

You have come this far, don't give up.
Have faith in yourself, okay. :)

Alright. I already changed my blogskin. LOL. thanks to Fiqah and Diane. Thanks for helping me. Hehe. Appreciate it lots and lots. Basically, working today. Well, work today is good. Not tired but fun. Its Monday, yet again. Time flies so fast. Its 16th March. 2 more weeks and results will be out.

I don't know whether I still want to stay on at Cotton On or find other jobs? I don't know lah. I wanted to but maybe is just not my luck. I still miss Giordano. Haiz. If can, I would not even want to quit Giordano. Silly me. :( maybe, i was just unfortunate or just unlucky. This Year is my bad year. Don't know why. But look at the bright side, I'm enjoying my life to the fullest! :)

Did nt collect my cheque yesterday. Collecting it tomorrow. I need the money by Wednesday. :) alright, its 1 am now. I'm always blog at night. Haha. Just came back home. Working on Friday.

I think after the renovation for 3 months, I don't think I want to come back at Parkway Cotton On anymore. I guess, I just stay at the Cotton On that I will be posted to. :) & hopefully that wish of mine come true.

Got to go now. :) I want to watch Movie, can? LOL.

Hello Bloggers!

Alright. I still can't decide on what blogskin to use for my Blog. just remain as it is for now okay. Work, is okay. For now, i just work as normal and do my own job. End work at 6.30pm and headed to Paya Lebar to meet my friend who supposed to hand me the paper I asked her to print. Thanks Syazana.

Got some errors and need to amend it so I decided to go to her house to reprint again. LOL. Thanks, once again. I will not be coming for Meeting tomorrow. As i got work and need to collect my cheque also. But then, will pass the paper to Emma tomorrow Morning. haha.

Parkway Parade Cotton On is going to have a renovation next Month. Yay! Been waiting for this for so long. It will be a mega store. Haha. Mega Store! So for three months, I got to work elsewhere ( as in other outlets of Cotton On) :) can't wait for it!

Script for College 56 will be arriving soon. Hopefully, I won't need to memorise a lot of line. But that, would be great. Haha. :) I need a longgggg break! Going Overseas next month. Can't wait!

Oh sharks, I can't sleep and I'm damn Bored now! LOL. But will be going to bed ASAP. Mum has been crying since my little sis came back home. Her condition is getting worse. I don't know wad else I can do/help. I'm feeling useless now.

I know Mum has been crying out just now and every single night. She just wants my sister to recover. All of us wants her to recover. Mum can't go to sleep seeing her condition like this. & me, I can't do anything at all. Wad a useless brother I am. & to make matters worse, my younger brother has not been coming home lately, going out late at night and come back home in the morning.

My family is torn apart. Is drifting apart like hell. I don't feel like I do have a family. Sometimes, I just want to go somewhere quieter and relaxing so that my mind will be in ease.

Dear God, please make my Sister recover as soon as possible. I miss her laughter, smile and everything. Please. All I ask for is to make her feel better. My Mum has been crying. Don't let my mum cry anymore. I beg You, just for once.

Hello!

Well, I had fun today. Not excited but happy. Meeting about Nusantara trip on April and as well as Production Meeting. It was raining, again as usual. I did not bring my umbrella along thinking it was sunny. Oh well. enough about that.

Everyone's enjoying their Holidays i guess? I'm enjoying mine as I can release myself from stress and don't need to wake up early in the morning for school. Haha. Results will be out on 1st April, if I'm not wrong.

Wish me luck aite. I think I want to change my Blogskin. It is so damn plain and boring. But, i just could not decide on what Skin I want to use for my Blog. Will decide on that later.

I'm working Tomorrow but I like my shift. Haha. 1230 hours to 1830 hours. 6 hours working. :) great right? Haha. I am waiting for this kind of shift to come. & it did. Thanks!

Let me summarise a bit about what I did the past few days, weeks, etc.

9/3
Did not came for BCM exams.
Mr Sean, Mr Daniel, Mr Khoo called.
Had diarrhoea (freaking painful)
Went KK Hospital to visit my Sister.
Stayed around until 5.30pm.
See Doctor for MC.
Revise for POM
Sleep.

10/3
Had POM Exams.
Manageable.
Headed back Home.
Went to Lavender to collect Passport.
Meet up Fina, Nadea and Farhan for a while at Wisma.
Hang out with Hussain, Izzat and Asshiq at Simei.
Went Home.
Chatting and surfing.
Sleep.

11/3
Stayed at home.
Chatting
Chatting
Surfing Net
Went to Fish & Co for Dinner.
Shop at Cotton On.
Went Home.
Sleep.

12/3
Stayed at Home
Lil Sister came back home from Hospital.
Went for Drama Training
Wait up for Luqman and Atiiyah.
Had Intensive Training (No more)
De-brief.
Pack up and headed back home.
Chatting
Sleep.

13/3
Stayed at home for a couple of hours.
Headed to TM for Work.
Ends at 10.30pm.
Reached home & Ate.
Chatting + Surfing Net
Sleep.

I think that's it. I don't know what will I be doing after Work tomorrow. Haha. Guess, head back home and start online! LOL :) & I need to work with Ratna for the Photo Shoot thing. I'm her Assistant Photo Shoot & Image Producer. :) guess, she is a capable Photographer.

I did not realised you mean so much to me. Now, I realised that I needed you by my side. But only time can tell what will happen in the future. Just pray for the better yeah. :)

Hello.

Well yesterday was the final and last training ever. Meaning, no more doing Character Building Training. I sprained my ankle, my leg cramp, my body aches, i can't run that fast anymore. Let's just say my whole body is aching.

Thought yesterday was Vocal Training but it turns out to be intensive training. Thanks Abg Hamzah! Well, we had some group photos at the end of the training. I can see the bonding we had and its great. Its good to see that we are a happy family now.

Oh yeah those that i have nt yet link, has already been LINKED! :) sorry for keeping you guys waiting. Haha.

today i'm working. Damn! :) i was sleeping and my manager called me up. and she was like can you work today? not wanting to reject her, i say Yes, can! :)

Okay, never mind. I need money anyway. Been missing from work since last week.

Great News, my sister is discharged and is resting at home now. But, she's still not feeling well. I don't know wad's going on with her. Dear God, please make her better. Please.

Saturday, Meeting at Jelutung CC. Gonna be a whole day meeting. Haha. :) & thanks to that Iskandar for pinching me out of sudden. & Aidil for bullying me. I will have my revenge soon! :)

HELLO!

Basically, yesterday was a great day. Went out to TM for dinner with my siblings. thanks to my sister. she paid for it. Haha. Dinner : Fish & Co. My very first time eat at there. Was nice. I like the Fish and Chips. The fish is so tender. & the Drinks omg, so nice can! :)

Then after that headed to Cotton On. I bought shorts. My brothers bought slippers and jeans. Haha. Thanks SIS! :) actually, we had this dinner cum shopping because my Elder Bro is going to Army tomorrow (which is today) so celebrate farewell dinner.

Today, got Vocal Training. Can't wait to see those faces. LOL. i want to quit my job, can? just can't make any decision now. :) so now, i'm HOME ALONE. yes, HOME ALONE! luckily it is 1pm in the afternoon if not i will be in my room with the door lock and all the windows close!

Someone is back after so long went missing. Haha. Welcome Back tau! :)

I want Ice Cream! Hehe! & Movie treats soon! Diane, Fiqah! Meet up soon okay! Miss you lots!

HELLO ! I'm so happy! Because exams are OVER! :) yes, & its HOLIDAYS! Woohoo! can't wait for this to arrive and finally it does! Haha. Alright, the last paper was quite easy. I would not say it is very Easy but its manageable. Able to answer the questions but some of the questions i forgot the answer. :) i just wrote down wadever that comes in my mind.

Okay, what's next? Working? Drama training? Haha. I will be quite busy until JULY. can't wait for Sat! I'm missing sum1 so badly. Don't know why. I need a hug. A good hug. :) Okay, before the exam, i was kinda nervous and scared. Cause Marketing is a Killer Paper. I mean the book is too wordy. I just could not put everything which is frm Unit 1 to 12 in my head. So, i kinda like read through the Most important words.

But i'm glad that exams are over. A sigh of relief, i guess. So, i got to spend my Holidays with Friends and Family. & of course my Drama Peeps. Thursday is Training. Can't wait to see those familiar faces again! Haha.

Oh by the way, i got a new name. Call me MR THROW. Was suggested by my Drama Peeps. Haha. Idiot right? I know. Seriously. :) & CHLOE, hang out soon yeah. Miss you Sweetie. :)

I got to link those people that i forgot to link. Haha. Okay, will do that ASAP.

WISHING ALL, A HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :)

well good bye!

Hey guys! Miss me? Haha. Okay so far life for me is as normal as you can see but i'm feeling down. My lil sis is admitted to hospital. she gt brain infection. a 11 years old girl has an infection. i felt really sad and almost shed to tears when i visited her yesterday at the hospital.

tears are running down my cheeks. i have no idea how long she's gonna stay in the hospital. mum told me that her condition is getting frm bad to worse. i'm afraid sumthing bad will happen to her. i dun want. God, please don't torture her this way. she don't knw anything. she's disabled. please, let her go.

i really hope my sis will recover as soon as possible. i want to see her smile and laugh and play around wid me. i want her just the way she is before.

had Vocal Training just now. BESTTT! Love it to the Max! & the song just touched my heart. afterwards, watched Watchmen wid my friend. A friend i didn't meet for 3 months! :)

Watchmen is the most Boring, long winded, draggy Movie ever. 3 hours sey the Movie! My butt is so damn painful cause of it. It is so long winded. The way the story flows just makes me want to get out frm my seat and walk off. when it ends, every1 stand up and walk quickly. walked out frm the Cinema. Haha! So BORING! Please don't watch Watchmen! :)

BCM is on this Monday! God, need to memorize the formats. & POM, 2 more units. Damn, i need 8 GB for my brain. need to mug hard for exams. JIA YOU FAIZ!

Alright. after exams, i'm gonna go out often! Haha. No lah, i mean i'm gonna rest myself first. not to think of anything and just wait for results to be release. Oh yeah, mid march onwards. C'mon Faiz, get in. Good luck!

come to think of it, i'm quite excited for the College 56 Musical. Can't wait for the script to arrive! :) good night!

Hello. ETP presentation is over. Now i can concentrate on my POM. I really need to get an A for this module. Oh God. my sis is in the hospital and i really really hope she will be fine. :) Congrats to those who got in Poly. Wish you all the very best in life.

Had my training yesterday. Oh my God, my leg cramp like hell. Well, didn't exercise for so long. & the weather is so damn cold. It was raining heavily yesterday. Nowadays, weather is so unpredictable.

Tml will be Vocal Training. Looking forward to it. :) left wid 3 more days to study POM. BCM on Monday and i must read through the papers again. POM, please please please an easy paper okay? :) Alright, i need to focus more on POM. Unit 7 to 12, here i come.

All the best for your EXAMS, GUYS & GIRLS! :)

Meeting up Hubert tml for a movie. Haha. Damn, miss him sey. I want to see his botak hair tml. Haha. :)

This Movie is the most Horror, bloody, scary, awesome Movie ever! Especially when u watch it on 3D! OMG! i watched it just now wid my friend. i tell you i was very scared. The effects just makes you want to walk out from the Cinema. :)

I must recommend this Movie to all of you. get your tickets ASAP. it is the BEST MOVIE ever! :) as i was sitting down in the Cinema, i can actually feel myself inside the Movie wid the rest of the characters. the part he killed all people was the most brutal scene ever. Oh my god. The Director must be a killer freak or sumthing that he can even produced or direct this kind of Movie.

The Supernatural guy is in it. Well, he is good looking. I cannot reveal too much here. you guys better watch it yourself. I tell you, i want to scream my lungs out when watching it! So damn Brutal and scary!

i heard frm sum1 that my Manager wants to kick me out frm the work place. i had it wid you. wad's your problem? you are not happy wid me, you can just get out and go sum where else to work. I/We do not need a Manager like you. Bloody Hell! just because u are the Manager doesn't mean i must give face to you! i hope you get your own retribution one day! Wait and see!

i'm so damn pissed off wid my working colleagues. and of course my Manager. she is a favouritism person. Wad the hell! I just want to get out from that place. I need to find a better job. God, please help me. Oh God.

Maybe this is all a test. Like i said earlier on, this is a test from Allah to see whether i'm able to face it bravely and move on wid life. :) i will. i will do just that.

1 more day. God. i don't knw wad time but i want a good news. Please, a good news will do. for once, please.

Tml Training, Yeah! Can't wait. See you all Tml! :) good night!

Hello. i had a great day yet again. LOL. maybe due to lovely peeps that makes me simply enjoy the day. new Intakes are in our school and i tell youu, this school gonna be pack wid more and more and more of students. :) oh god. i need to get out of that place before i suffocated! :) exaggerate eh Faiz! :) the pic above is last week. took it cause we were bored! :) haha. i can only post one pic cause the damn blog upload the pic so slow. IDIOT! :)

Went to Bugis and eat at a very nice place. Wow, so nice that i can't resist. Thanks Fina, Nad! :) thanks to that Enormous Ass for being so LATE. I was so hungry and must wait for him some more. LOL. Seriously, i didn't eat that much for the whole day. but was really hungry at around 6 pm plus.

had my dinner and went off. sorry guys, i will definitely spend more time wid you all next time okay! i really felt that part of my heart has been stabbed by a very sharp arrow. i don't know why. i just felt so painful. so painful that no wound can heal.

wad's wrong wid me? is the world going around? as the saying goes, wad comes around, goes around. did i do bad deeds that GOD is punishing me? oh God, maybe this is all a test from Allah. to test my patience. to see whether i'm strong enough to handle this kind of situation. i'm used to it. life is full of ups and downs. i can't wish for smooth sailing years all the time. need to feel some setbacks as well.

i'm very tired. so tired of playing games wid you. i don't want to drag this matter. just leave me Alone. exams is next week. I need to get my butts and my eyes and hands and start revising now. Seriously, it is less than a week. God, please give me strength and the will to carry on wid my life. please make my dreams come true.

2 more days. just 2 more days and i'm nervous. nervous to the extreme that it will produce bad news to me. i don't want. i want good news. news that makes me jump high and excited for just a little while. perhaps, after tml, i must get prepared wid any kind of news.

either it is bad/good news, i will not give up. i will persevere till the end. :)

movie treats wid my lovely girl friend tml. Hehe. :) hey, must have fun tml okay! i promise, i won't be late. Haha. :) good night.

I'm not in the best of mood to talk about work. seems like, they don't need me anymore. Why? Simply because i do not meet to their expectations. Wad the hell. can't you see i'm trying my best? can't you see i'm struggling through the holes to reach your standards? can't you see i'm working hard to prove you wrong? why can't you just understand that i'm giving all the best i could.

if you love to cancel my shifts, by all mean. i don't care anymore. cause i don't want to continue my life by getting hurt in this kind of situation. but i won't give up that easily. i will make sure that i will succeed till the end. just wait & see.

alright. school has been kind of boring lately. not sure why but i just don't feel like waking up early in the morning to attend class. guess, need to self study at home. POM grade : B :)

although a B sounds nice, i'm still not satisfied. i need an A at least. to up my gpa. i need 3 As for the 3 modules. but if 2As and 1B will be fine too. study hard, AB. all the best.

i'm looking for a new job. not sure yet. maybe. i will keep on searching till i got the right job. not giving up, for now at least. send out resumes to 2 jobs. waiting for their reply. hopefully a good reply will do. :)

weather is so weird nowadays. it has been raining cats and dogs. people, get yourself an umbrella in case of emergency. like now, seriously. cause you won't know when will it be sunny or rainy tml or the day after.

i'm in a stage of breaking down. i need a hug. i need a shoulder to lean on. i want to pour all out. i don't want to keep it in my heart for too long, if not i'm gonna go insane.

NATASHA, i miss you. :) meet up soon okay. like soon tauu!




i miss the girl above. she's the only one that i can share my nonsense to the max stories. she brings laughter to my eyes & she's always there by my side to cheer me up whenever i'm down.

she also the one i will laugh wid when we hang out and bought donuts together. she will call me Ah Phat and i will smile for sure. she will hug me when she misses me alot. & i will hug her too.

she's the most bestest greatest friend ever to me. a big sister, to be exact.

thank you so much Natasha. i miss you lots & i will never ever forget you in my life. you're such a good friend & sis to me. i'm thankful to God for that. hang out soon okay. :)




& of course there is others also. Hehe. & to this particular lady. thank you so much. I miss you lots too. will meet up on Thursday for sure. thanks for consoling me. thanks for helping me lots too. & of course we are going on a date this Wednesday. Haha. Can't wait Azyan! :) LOL. lets have fun on that day yeah!

& this lady here is the most funniest girl i ever met. she brightens up my day when we meet up. we call each other MORON when we meet for movie. :) haha. she loves taking pictures and i love to be her Model for that. thank you Azyan. thank you for everything.

i guess that's it. hehe. i can't wait for Drama rehearsals again. i want to see all of my peeps. :) see you all on Thursday. remember to wear the right attire for that day okay. LOL. :)

BYE! :) Holidays coming & i'm looking forward for it. oh yeah 3 more days. just 3 more days. :) wish me the best of luck.

Hello. weather has been so cold these few days. great or not great? maybe it's good that it is raining. perhaps, the hot weather has been overcome by the cold rain. :) wad a feeling.

Busy busy week. working just now and my leg is still cramp cause of the physical training i had yesterday. was not prepared for it but still, do the best i can. has been so long since i last exercise. :) i know, lazy me right? haha.

ETP powerpoint is complete. just wait for the day to present. i hope it will go smoothly. tml is another day for sch and as well as working. get myself prepared for Thursday as result will be out. i need it, please. :) all i can do is pray to God for help and answer my prayers.

i just find out that i miss working for so long. it has been such a while since i step onto my work place. the feeling of it, reciprocates. i miss the music, the laughter & the smell of Famous Amos, just downstairs where i work. :)

& seeing my colleagues once again, brightens up my day wid a smile on my face. wad a day. :)

please don't treat me so good. if you treat me so good, i might fall in love wid you. so please, don't.

Hello Diary!

Had an awesome day today. Stayed in the Hospital from 2pm till 9pm. almost the whole day. My Lil sister is in the Hospital and because I got no plans, I decided to visit her. :) I know, I'm a kind brother. Hehe.

Actually, I'm supposed to watch my friends rehearsal but due to not knowing where is the place, I decided to go along with my sister instead. I know it is boring doing nothing in the hosp. I can feel the boredom coming to me. But, I just want to take a little look at my Lil sister condition. She is recovering. I'm glad that she is doing fine.

Hosp is not a good place to stay actually. I rather stay at home instead. :) LOL. after which, we went home. I was so tired and thought of going to sleep but when I saw my laptop, I rushed to it and start MSN.

Now, I'm blogging. :) Tomorrow will mark the end of March and I'm so looking forward for April. Wad will be happening in April, I'm not that sure. But I will expect lots and lots of fun! :) Working on Friday and Sunday. :) KL trip next week and I can't wait! Yeah! :)

Tomorrow is rehearsal and I am very happy and excited. Abg Khai is joining us for the trip. Yay! to those that I did not link, please leave a comment at the tagboard. I might overlook it as I'm very busy. Will link you all very soon!

Huda called me just now. Haha. We will meet up tomorrow okay. :) go dating eh? haha. the picture above was taken by Azyan (the noose partner) on Saturday. :) haha! & I grabbed it from her blog. Cool uh.

as you can see from above picture, that we are of course talking about some issues that need to be settled ASAP. Thank God it has already been settled. :) i guess so. :) hopefully tomorrow training will be a fun and enjoyable one.

see you all! Good night! :) sweet dreams!

through all the bad times, I'll stick with you.
through all the good times, I'll be with you.
through all the emotions, I'll hug you.

Hello Diary!

Had a pleasant day today. Working as normal but went home early today. Meet up with the rest of my friends at Tanjong Pagar as Abg Hamzah is leaving for KL. have a safe trip k. We had lots and lots and lots of photos taken. Cameras flashing here and there. :) like we are one of the superstar!

I was not in the right mood in the early afternoon. Was feeling unwell maybe due to hot weather and I'm sick. Yes, sick. But so far, I'm feeling okay now. Just okay. I can't wait for tomorrow. :) must enjoy myself tomorrow.

Plans to go out with Sec Sch classmates have to be postponed to a later date instead. As everyone is busy with their own lives, I suggest we meet up when the right time comes alright? :) sorry to cause any inconvenience to all of you.

I know, I miss all my Sec Sch classmates. We will meet up soon, I promise. I am still trying my very best to memorise every single lines of the script. I'm trying. :)

I'm gonna cut my hair real soon! By Tuesday will be a short hair! :) Seriously, I'm sick of having long hair. Looks freaking ugly to me. :) haha.

Oh Sharks, results is coming in very soon. Very very soon. I can feel the pressure. I can sense it. :) oh my god. thoughts are running all over my mind. how do I fare? did I pass? will I get 3.5 and above? nervous.anxious.worried.

I really got to pass this semester. Seriously. Dear God, wish me the best of luck, please. :) everyone seems to like my character. Thank you so much guys! I won't let you all down! :)

Got to go now. Blog again soon okay! :) LOVE you ALL! :) Good night!

A minute pass, I'm missing you.
A second ticks, I'm wanting you.
An hour rings, I'm loving you.

Hello Diary!

Today Rehearsals were so energetic and full of hyper! :) although, I felt tired after all the dancing and script reading, I kept myself awake and make sure I'm not letting myself and others down. It was a wonderful Saturday and it is one of the best trainings we had. :)

It was great to see those familiar faces once again and had a great time together. Although, it is just 4 hours, it seems to me like 4 days. :) LOL. perhaps, I miss them a lot! actually, I can see the bonding we had now. & I'm happy to say that we all are one family that will stick throughout the whole journey together.

We finished our whole script today and everyone is happy for that. I can see that we all are improving and we did our best. But, there's always room for improvement. I'm still at the stage of memorising my lines and get into my character. :)

Due to the dance practice, I'm feeling super duper lethargic now. Never felt this tired before. Haha. Okay, wad's next? Actually, I can't wait for Vocal Training. :) really miss it. training is on Tuesday and I think I won't be going out with my friends. Sorry guys.

I can't wait for my results to come out and the trip to KL. :) haha. It will be fun, I guess. Production is left with 4 more months and we all must do our very BEST okay! :) hehe! come to think of it, I'm really excited for it and I can't wait wad will be in store for us! To the both of you, I miss you! :) hang out soon, Fina & Thameem!

Got to go now. Sleeping time. Haha. Good night!

Despite your playfulness, I still like you.
Despite your carelessness, I still want you.
Despite your egoism, I still love you.

HELLO DIARY!

Yesterday was the 2nd day of script reading and I'm so happy that I did my best. Friends told me that my image was totally different than the real me. Haha. I will try to nail it again and do the very best I can! :)

Before that, hang out with oh so lovely friends of mine. Hafiz H, Atiiyah, Luqman and Aidyl. We had a splendid day out together and it was so fun! Despite being bullied by Hafiz H and the rest, I still remain calm. Haha! We headed to Sakura for lunch and then went to Esplanade for some fresh air.

Hafiz H told us stories of his past and ghost stories. How he met ghost in Sarawak, his house etc. It was so super duper scary but fun. After which, we headed to MRT to go to Sembawang. We laughed, chat together and doing stupid stuffs. Haha. Hafiz H reaction was so wild when I want to throw my slippers at his face which I did not. LOL.

A baby did something unexpected to Hafiz H. Haha. Which we find it kinda cool. LOL. Then met Asyura, Asyraf, Zizie, Ratna, Azura at Sembawang. After the script reading, I went home and overslept in the bus that I missed my stop. Haha. As a result, I walked home. :)

So I really enjoyed my day yesterday. Looking forward for tomorrow. 4 hours of script reading, its gonna be a great day! Working today. :)

Got to go now, enjoy reading READERS! :)

To say I love you.
To say I miss you.
To say I need you.

Dear Diary.

In any minute, this BLOG will always be full of post. :) it is because I'm not working till Thursday! Haha. So, I will be blogging almost everyday. I read people's blog and each of them got each problems. I really mean it. Well, human beings got problems right? Its a fact that we cannot deny.

I got mine too. But its over and done with. :) I have been sleeping so late at night and wake up so late in the afternoon. Oh my god! Am I becoming just like my brother? Hell NO! :) Haha. My brother will be back from NS soon! Just for one day then he will go inside back. :)

I still have not yet memorise any lines from the Script that was given to me a few days back. For the first time, I got a lot of lines to read. It is a wonderful thing but am I prepared? I must be. I can't sit down and do nothing, right? I must do the best I can to make all of my Variasians proud!

Speaking of which, I can't wait for the training on Thursday. Hehe. It's gonna be a great day! I'm addicted to Wonder Girls song. Seriously, it's very nice to hear and I just wish I can learn their dance move! LOL. Nadzirah want to teach me, kan? LOL.

Is true that we cannot trust a friend let alone a stranger. They might just back stab us and gossip about us behind our back. I mean, we must be extremely careful and make sure we don't reveal any secret out to them. An English saying goes: Get close to your Enemies.

True enough. As I said earlier from my post, that its their mouths. A person that plays with fire, eventually get burnt. I have no rights to stop someone from gossiping about others. But, just wait and see how long can the person survive by gossiping. Haha.

I had a very very very delicious awesome wonderful dinner! LOL. Beef fried rice. Even though, it is just a normal dish, I still love every bit of it. I don't need a sumptuous dinner to satisfy my tummy. :)

I miss hanging out with my friends. Now, it is Holidays, they are much more busier than me. Let's meet up soon, alright. Bestie, I know you're feeling down right now. I wish I could help you but I myself not sure wad to do. Don't lose hope alright. I'm sure, you will succeed eventually one day! :) trust me. GOD will help those that help themselves.

March is coming to an end & April will soon arrive in a short period of time. Let just say March is not an awesome month for me. But, it is full of wonderful memories. Memories that I won't forget even it is just a day. :)

Got to go now. Haha. I will blog again. Maybe tomorrow. Just check out my blog okay. Hehe. Good night. :)

When the sun rise, I call you.
When the morning breaks, I chat with you.
When you feeling down, I'll be with you.

Dear Readers.

Well today, I'm not working. So, I stayed at home till now. It has been so long since I really stay at home. :) Usually, I will go out in the afternoon with friends. sis is still in hospital. will visit her soon. I miss her laughter. I really want her to recover. Nadeera, please recover okay.

So what will I be doing tomorrow? I guess, stay at home again? Haha. Or I will visit my sis in the hospital. I want to see how her condition is. :) see how lah. Oh yeah hanging out with friends this Thursday before heading myself to Rehearsal. :) hehe.

I already wrote down the outlets that I want to work at. Tampines Mall, Wisma Atria and Novena. Either 3 of them, I will be happy. But I would want to be at Tampines. So, I won't waste money on buses and furthermore so convenient. :)

But I also don't mind Novena. Never work there before. Wanna try. Haha. Wisma, okay lah not bad. Hehe. Anywhere they want to put me, I just work. I'm not fussy. It has been quite sometime that no one ask me whether I'm still working in Giordano until today. Haha.

Yeah, I still miss working there. A lot of beautiful and painful memories. I miss working in Whitesands, especially. That is my first working place. I know I should not dwell on the past but I really miss Giordano. If can, I would not want to quit. Never mind. I got Cotton On now. :)

Fina is sick. Rest well and take care of your health, girl. See you soon. Miss you. :) oh yeah, news really spread so fast. My colleagues know that I wanted to transfer to Wisma. Haha. Who told who eh? But that was last time. Now I don't know where I want to transfer to. Hehe.

My colleagues, has been treating me okay. Not good but alright. They still know that I exist. Haha. I would not want to assumed whether they are talking about me or not. I don't wish to create an unwanted scene. I'm not that sort of person. :)

But it is their mouths, anyway. So, I would not want to be bothered about anything. Let them say wad they want to say. As long as my conscience is clear, I would not take it too personal. :)

I will be very very busy with trainings and work. So, don't miss me yeah, readers. LOL. But, I will definitely blog as much as possible. Okay got to go now. Take care. :) good night!

When time flies, I miss you.
When clock strikes, I think of you.
When night comes, I dream of you.

HELLO READERS!

Was working today. Glad that the time flies so fast. It was packed. Packed with customers and stuffs. But it was a great day today. Well, at least for me. :) Not working tomorrow till Thursday. I have not yet memorise a single line from the Script. I need more time to really understand and memorise the lines. :) wish me luck.

I seriously can't wait for the renovation to start. So I can be able to work at other outlets temporary. :) Haha. But I would not want to move back to Parkway even after its renovation. I mean, its gonna be a mega store. A huge one. I can't work in a huge place. I will get tired easily. Haha. :)

Oh yeah, I got no plans at all this coming week. Guess, will stuck at home then. :) I am very full now. After eating chicken fried rice, I am no longer hungry. Haha. :) I want to go swimming one day. But too busy with stuffs.

I miss my secondary school mates, suddenly. :) random right. Haha. I mean, some of my friends will be going to NS this coming April. So before they go in, let's meet up alright. Haha. I still have pictures of my classmates which is not my friends anymore. & the memories came to my mind again. I want to let it go. I don't wish to remember about the past but it still came back.

What should I do? I can no longer face them. Even if we are having holidays, we will still face each other when school starts. I cannot run away from them but I don't wish to see their faces too. I really need to get out from that school ASAP. God, let this 2 semester ends quickly.

At times like this, I need you.
At times like this, I want you.
At times like this, I love you.

Hello DEARS!

Today was another great day! Script has been given out & I'm so happy with the script! :) haha. there are too many lines to memorise! Oh my god! & I hate my character here. Haha.

If you guys want to know why, do watch us on JULY. It will be the best Musical Ever! :) after the Script reading, proceed to Tampines to watch Aidil and Iskandar perform. I seriously impressed with both of them.

Especially Iskandar. He show the other side of him. Cannot believe he nail his character so well. & his partner, the guy he acted with is so GOOD. I mean, seriously. He can act as good as Iskandar too. & Of course Aidil. haha. :) Great Job guys! My 8 bucks is worth watching your show. Haha.

After that, headed back home. Was supposed to wait for Aidil and Iskandar but I guess Iskandar needs to spend time with his girlfriend, April. So we went home first. :) I bet April is so happy to have Iskandar in her life. Haha.

Okay, I have read the whole script. It is good. The storyline is perfect. Although, there are some grammatical errors but as long as we understand what the meaning is, we can just say it out. :) I just can't wait for the entire rehearsal. Dancing, Singing and Acting. All in one. It will be a perfect show. Haha.

But seriously, right now I really need to learn a lot of my character. Haha. Being a teacher for a first time. Oh my God. A challenging role indeed. But, just pray that I can nail it. :) my mum told me that my sister is in the stage of recovering.

Thank God. I want to see her smile again. Back to her normal self. :) Working tomorrow. Haha.
Ramon, my 2nd In Charge is impressed with my work. Thanks yeah. :) Both of my Managers want to monitor my work. I mean, its a good thing lah. :)

Okay tomorrow working , 1230 to 1830. :) weeee! I think I want to visit my sister tomorrow after work. See how. I can't wait for the TRIP next month! Looking forward to it! :)

finally, I realised I need you.
please stay, will you?
please..

Hello Dears!

Alright. Yesterday training was fun but tiring. Expect the unexpected. Dancing is just not my thing but It was great! :) thanks Haizad, the Choreographer. & Hafiz H came! Lol. Surprise to see you. Glad to see you. Haha. Meet up soon.

Script will be coming tomorrow. Haha. Scared, nervous, anxious and worried. All this is in my mind right now. Just don't know what will happen. Haha. Is it Vocal Training tomorrow? Haha. Can't wait to sing! :)

I went for the audition yesterday. It was good. I manage to read the lines. I'm not sure whether I get this role or not. But its alright. Failure is a mother of success. Hopefully, I get it. :)

I'm not feeling myself lately. I'm breaking down. Its like I wanna cry but I just could not shed a tears. There's too much problems in my head now. I don't know who to turn to and who to talk to. All I need is a helping hand and a shoulder to lean on. I'm tired. Seriously, shagged.

I'm still deciding whether to quit my job or continue staying on. I just could not made up my mind. I need a job. & now, I have one. I should not quit right? But there's too much problems at work too.

I feel like there's no life in working there. Colleagues has been treating me coldly. I don't know what I did that makes you all seems to dislike me and distance yourself. You all have been making assumptions thinking that I did something bad and for sure, news has been spreading around.

Its the same case that happens to me and my classmates. Out of the sudden, they seems to attacked me and assuming that I'm at fault. I just could not understand. Is it really my fault? Or is it you guys pretending to be my friend and suddenly show your true colours in front of me?

I'm seriously tired. Tired of being the good guy. I just need to accept the bad luck I have now. I want to let go of my past but it is so hard to do so. A past can be forgotten but can never be erase. True enough.

Right now, I need a hug. Any kind of hug will do. Maybe, I need a rest. A rest to calm myself down. :) Working later. I'm not looking forward to it but just do my work.

& to Aidil and Iskandar, all the best for your show tomorrow. We will be coming down to support you guys! :)

Hello Bloggers!

Was working yesterday. Seriously, I miss all the colleagues there. Haha. It was fun meeting them again and talking with each other plus laughing as well.

Hafiz H. Don't be sad okay. You have us as Friends. Just move on even though the pain is still inflicted in your heart. I believe there are much more better girls out there for you. Wish you all the best. Meet up soon tau! :)

I actually envy those that are in relationships. But I just could not stand when they start to quarrel making a small issues into a bigger one. Its true that every relationships has their ups and downs in life. Some just pretend like they did not fight but some take it as a personal thing leading to suicide and stuffs.

If you cannot take any break ups, please do not ever start a relationship. Its a stupid thing for you to just feeling hurt and started to do stupid stuffs hurting yourself. A relationship needs sacrifices, trust, understanding, respect. But sometimes is the opposite.

Nowadays, not only guys are the one that break up with the girls. Its the opposite. What goes around comes around. Its a modern days now. You won't see a guys chasing after girls or girls chasing after guys. Its both chasing after each other. Its the same to relationships.

Girls can easily break up with their boyfriends in order to be with another one or they find that their boyfriends can't live to their expectations.

As for guys, they will break up with their girlfriends because they find their girlfriends unattractive, love to stalk them when they are alone or they tend to be too emotional.

Due to some of this reasons, I'm afraid to even start a relationship or to even think of having one. Its true that all of us will have our own life partner. But it takes time. We cannot rush things up. & I will just keep on looking for one. But right now, I'm more to being single. :)

Okay, enough of relationships.
Making me headache. :)

Today got training. & I postpone my audition to today. :) My Lil sis is admitted to hospital again. I really want to see her recover. Seeing her in this state, just makes me wanna cry. I love you, sis. Please recover okay.

I got to go now. Want to eat my breakfast. Blog again soon. :)

HELLO BLOG!

Love my new skin? haha. don't get jealous over it, will ya? Yours will be much more better, I guess. & by the way I'm so happy. Haha. I get my cheque already. Need it by tomorrow. Hopefully by tomorrow the money will go inside my bank account! :)

I'm working tomorrow. Haha. I have not been working at that place for so long. Miss it so much! & after that I have an audition. I'm so damn nervous. Eventhough I did attend the audition last year, but it still scares the hell out of me. I was not selected last year. Not sure whether this time, my luck will change. :)

My Lil sis is still suffering. Doctor says that she has chest problem and because of that phlegm is stuck inside her lungs. Due to that she have breathing difficulties. Poor sis. I miss the old her. Do recover yeah.

Some people might not know the condition I'm going through now. Some might think that I'm happy but in the inside, I'm suffering. I even smile for the sake of smiling. I'm just pretending to be happy to avoid people asking questions and stuffs. I just don't wish to ask for sympathy from anybody.

Because of that, I just pretend nothing has happened. Guess, I need to stand on my own feet now. The ladder of success might be full of obstacles and hardships but I will persevere till the end. I won't give up just yet. Not anymore.

Surprisingly, when I saw those faces that I long to see, I just could not stop but smile. Perhaps, these people are the one I can depend on and share my stories with. I'm just happy to have them as my new family. Thank you so much for being so concern. :)

Oh sharks, its 1 am again. Why do I always blog at night? haha. turning into a owl is it? LOL. I got 4 more hours to sleep. Better rest my eyes now or else I will look like a Panda tomorrow Morning! :) haha.

You have come this far, don't give up.
Have faith in yourself, okay. :)

Alright. I already changed my blogskin. LOL. thanks to Fiqah and Diane. Thanks for helping me. Hehe. Appreciate it lots and lots. Basically, working today. Well, work today is good. Not tired but fun. Its Monday, yet again. Time flies so fast. Its 16th March. 2 more weeks and results will be out.

I don't know whether I still want to stay on at Cotton On or find other jobs? I don't know lah. I wanted to but maybe is just not my luck. I still miss Giordano. Haiz. If can, I would not even want to quit Giordano. Silly me. :( maybe, i was just unfortunate or just unlucky. This Year is my bad year. Don't know why. But look at the bright side, I'm enjoying my life to the fullest! :)

Did nt collect my cheque yesterday. Collecting it tomorrow. I need the money by Wednesday. :) alright, its 1 am now. I'm always blog at night. Haha. Just came back home. Working on Friday.

I think after the renovation for 3 months, I don't think I want to come back at Parkway Cotton On anymore. I guess, I just stay at the Cotton On that I will be posted to. :) & hopefully that wish of mine come true.

Got to go now. :) I want to watch Movie, can? LOL.

Hello Bloggers!

Alright. I still can't decide on what blogskin to use for my Blog. just remain as it is for now okay. Work, is okay. For now, i just work as normal and do my own job. End work at 6.30pm and headed to Paya Lebar to meet my friend who supposed to hand me the paper I asked her to print. Thanks Syazana.

Got some errors and need to amend it so I decided to go to her house to reprint again. LOL. Thanks, once again. I will not be coming for Meeting tomorrow. As i got work and need to collect my cheque also. But then, will pass the paper to Emma tomorrow Morning. haha.

Parkway Parade Cotton On is going to have a renovation next Month. Yay! Been waiting for this for so long. It will be a mega store. Haha. Mega Store! So for three months, I got to work elsewhere ( as in other outlets of Cotton On) :) can't wait for it!

Script for College 56 will be arriving soon. Hopefully, I won't need to memorise a lot of line. But that, would be great. Haha. :) I need a longgggg break! Going Overseas next month. Can't wait!

Oh sharks, I can't sleep and I'm damn Bored now! LOL. But will be going to bed ASAP. Mum has been crying since my little sis came back home. Her condition is getting worse. I don't know wad else I can do/help. I'm feeling useless now.

I know Mum has been crying out just now and every single night. She just wants my sister to recover. All of us wants her to recover. Mum can't go to sleep seeing her condition like this. & me, I can't do anything at all. Wad a useless brother I am. & to make matters worse, my younger brother has not been coming home lately, going out late at night and come back home in the morning.

My family is torn apart. Is drifting apart like hell. I don't feel like I do have a family. Sometimes, I just want to go somewhere quieter and relaxing so that my mind will be in ease.

Dear God, please make my Sister recover as soon as possible. I miss her laughter, smile and everything. Please. All I ask for is to make her feel better. My Mum has been crying. Don't let my mum cry anymore. I beg You, just for once.

Hello!

Well, I had fun today. Not excited but happy. Meeting about Nusantara trip on April and as well as Production Meeting. It was raining, again as usual. I did not bring my umbrella along thinking it was sunny. Oh well. enough about that.

Everyone's enjoying their Holidays i guess? I'm enjoying mine as I can release myself from stress and don't need to wake up early in the morning for school. Haha. Results will be out on 1st April, if I'm not wrong.

Wish me luck aite. I think I want to change my Blogskin. It is so damn plain and boring. But, i just could not decide on what Skin I want to use for my Blog. Will decide on that later.

I'm working Tomorrow but I like my shift. Haha. 1230 hours to 1830 hours. 6 hours working. :) great right? Haha. I am waiting for this kind of shift to come. & it did. Thanks!

Let me summarise a bit about what I did the past few days, weeks, etc.

9/3
Did not came for BCM exams.
Mr Sean, Mr Daniel, Mr Khoo called.
Had diarrhoea (freaking painful)
Went KK Hospital to visit my Sister.
Stayed around until 5.30pm.
See Doctor for MC.
Revise for POM
Sleep.

10/3
Had POM Exams.
Manageable.
Headed back Home.
Went to Lavender to collect Passport.
Meet up Fina, Nadea and Farhan for a while at Wisma.
Hang out with Hussain, Izzat and Asshiq at Simei.
Went Home.
Chatting and surfing.
Sleep.

11/3
Stayed at home.
Chatting
Chatting
Surfing Net
Went to Fish & Co for Dinner.
Shop at Cotton On.
Went Home.
Sleep.

12/3
Stayed at Home
Lil Sister came back home from Hospital.
Went for Drama Training
Wait up for Luqman and Atiiyah.
Had Intensive Training (No more)
De-brief.
Pack up and headed back home.
Chatting
Sleep.

13/3
Stayed at home for a couple of hours.
Headed to TM for Work.
Ends at 10.30pm.
Reached home & Ate.
Chatting + Surfing Net
Sleep.

I think that's it. I don't know what will I be doing after Work tomorrow. Haha. Guess, head back home and start online! LOL :) & I need to work with Ratna for the Photo Shoot thing. I'm her Assistant Photo Shoot & Image Producer. :) guess, she is a capable Photographer.

I did not realised you mean so much to me. Now, I realised that I needed you by my side. But only time can tell what will happen in the future. Just pray for the better yeah. :)

Hello.

Well yesterday was the final and last training ever. Meaning, no more doing Character Building Training. I sprained my ankle, my leg cramp, my body aches, i can't run that fast anymore. Let's just say my whole body is aching.

Thought yesterday was Vocal Training but it turns out to be intensive training. Thanks Abg Hamzah! Well, we had some group photos at the end of the training. I can see the bonding we had and its great. Its good to see that we are a happy family now.

Oh yeah those that i have nt yet link, has already been LINKED! :) sorry for keeping you guys waiting. Haha.

today i'm working. Damn! :) i was sleeping and my manager called me up. and she was like can you work today? not wanting to reject her, i say Yes, can! :)

Okay, never mind. I need money anyway. Been missing from work since last week.

Great News, my sister is discharged and is resting at home now. But, she's still not feeling well. I don't know wad's going on with her. Dear God, please make her better. Please.

Saturday, Meeting at Jelutung CC. Gonna be a whole day meeting. Haha. :) & thanks to that Iskandar for pinching me out of sudden. & Aidil for bullying me. I will have my revenge soon! :)

HELLO!

Basically, yesterday was a great day. Went out to TM for dinner with my siblings. thanks to my sister. she paid for it. Haha. Dinner : Fish & Co. My very first time eat at there. Was nice. I like the Fish and Chips. The fish is so tender. & the Drinks omg, so nice can! :)

Then after that headed to Cotton On. I bought shorts. My brothers bought slippers and jeans. Haha. Thanks SIS! :) actually, we had this dinner cum shopping because my Elder Bro is going to Army tomorrow (which is today) so celebrate farewell dinner.

Today, got Vocal Training. Can't wait to see those faces. LOL. i want to quit my job, can? just can't make any decision now. :) so now, i'm HOME ALONE. yes, HOME ALONE! luckily it is 1pm in the afternoon if not i will be in my room with the door lock and all the windows close!

Someone is back after so long went missing. Haha. Welcome Back tau! :)

I want Ice Cream! Hehe! & Movie treats soon! Diane, Fiqah! Meet up soon okay! Miss you lots!

HELLO ! I'm so happy! Because exams are OVER! :) yes, & its HOLIDAYS! Woohoo! can't wait for this to arrive and finally it does! Haha. Alright, the last paper was quite easy. I would not say it is very Easy but its manageable. Able to answer the questions but some of the questions i forgot the answer. :) i just wrote down wadever that comes in my mind.

Okay, what's next? Working? Drama training? Haha. I will be quite busy until JULY. can't wait for Sat! I'm missing sum1 so badly. Don't know why. I need a hug. A good hug. :) Okay, before the exam, i was kinda nervous and scared. Cause Marketing is a Killer Paper. I mean the book is too wordy. I just could not put everything which is frm Unit 1 to 12 in my head. So, i kinda like read through the Most important words.

But i'm glad that exams are over. A sigh of relief, i guess. So, i got to spend my Holidays with Friends and Family. & of course my Drama Peeps. Thursday is Training. Can't wait to see those familiar faces again! Haha.

Oh by the way, i got a new name. Call me MR THROW. Was suggested by my Drama Peeps. Haha. Idiot right? I know. Seriously. :) & CHLOE, hang out soon yeah. Miss you Sweetie. :)

I got to link those people that i forgot to link. Haha. Okay, will do that ASAP.

WISHING ALL, A HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :)

well good bye!

Hey guys! Miss me? Haha. Okay so far life for me is as normal as you can see but i'm feeling down. My lil sis is admitted to hospital. she gt brain infection. a 11 years old girl has an infection. i felt really sad and almost shed to tears when i visited her yesterday at the hospital.

tears are running down my cheeks. i have no idea how long she's gonna stay in the hospital. mum told me that her condition is getting frm bad to worse. i'm afraid sumthing bad will happen to her. i dun want. God, please don't torture her this way. she don't knw anything. she's disabled. please, let her go.

i really hope my sis will recover as soon as possible. i want to see her smile and laugh and play around wid me. i want her just the way she is before.

had Vocal Training just now. BESTTT! Love it to the Max! & the song just touched my heart. afterwards, watched Watchmen wid my friend. A friend i didn't meet for 3 months! :)

Watchmen is the most Boring, long winded, draggy Movie ever. 3 hours sey the Movie! My butt is so damn painful cause of it. It is so long winded. The way the story flows just makes me want to get out frm my seat and walk off. when it ends, every1 stand up and walk quickly. walked out frm the Cinema. Haha! So BORING! Please don't watch Watchmen! :)

BCM is on this Monday! God, need to memorize the formats. & POM, 2 more units. Damn, i need 8 GB for my brain. need to mug hard for exams. JIA YOU FAIZ!

Alright. after exams, i'm gonna go out often! Haha. No lah, i mean i'm gonna rest myself first. not to think of anything and just wait for results to be release. Oh yeah, mid march onwards. C'mon Faiz, get in. Good luck!

come to think of it, i'm quite excited for the College 56 Musical. Can't wait for the script to arrive! :) good night!

Hello. ETP presentation is over. Now i can concentrate on my POM. I really need to get an A for this module. Oh God. my sis is in the hospital and i really really hope she will be fine. :) Congrats to those who got in Poly. Wish you all the very best in life.

Had my training yesterday. Oh my God, my leg cramp like hell. Well, didn't exercise for so long. & the weather is so damn cold. It was raining heavily yesterday. Nowadays, weather is so unpredictable.

Tml will be Vocal Training. Looking forward to it. :) left wid 3 more days to study POM. BCM on Monday and i must read through the papers again. POM, please please please an easy paper okay? :) Alright, i need to focus more on POM. Unit 7 to 12, here i come.

All the best for your EXAMS, GUYS & GIRLS! :)

Meeting up Hubert tml for a movie. Haha. Damn, miss him sey. I want to see his botak hair tml. Haha. :)

This Movie is the most Horror, bloody, scary, awesome Movie ever! Especially when u watch it on 3D! OMG! i watched it just now wid my friend. i tell you i was very scared. The effects just makes you want to walk out from the Cinema. :)

I must recommend this Movie to all of you. get your tickets ASAP. it is the BEST MOVIE ever! :) as i was sitting down in the Cinema, i can actually feel myself inside the Movie wid the rest of the characters. the part he killed all people was the most brutal scene ever. Oh my god. The Director must be a killer freak or sumthing that he can even produced or direct this kind of Movie.

The Supernatural guy is in it. Well, he is good looking. I cannot reveal too much here. you guys better watch it yourself. I tell you, i want to scream my lungs out when watching it! So damn Brutal and scary!

i heard frm sum1 that my Manager wants to kick me out frm the work place. i had it wid you. wad's your problem? you are not happy wid me, you can just get out and go sum where else to work. I/We do not need a Manager like you. Bloody Hell! just because u are the Manager doesn't mean i must give face to you! i hope you get your own retribution one day! Wait and see!

i'm so damn pissed off wid my working colleagues. and of course my Manager. she is a favouritism person. Wad the hell! I just want to get out from that place. I need to find a better job. God, please help me. Oh God.

Maybe this is all a test. Like i said earlier on, this is a test from Allah to see whether i'm able to face it bravely and move on wid life. :) i will. i will do just that.

1 more day. God. i don't knw wad time but i want a good news. Please, a good news will do. for once, please.

Tml Training, Yeah! Can't wait. See you all Tml! :) good night!

Hello. i had a great day yet again. LOL. maybe due to lovely peeps that makes me simply enjoy the day. new Intakes are in our school and i tell youu, this school gonna be pack wid more and more and more of students. :) oh god. i need to get out of that place before i suffocated! :) exaggerate eh Faiz! :) the pic above is last week. took it cause we were bored! :) haha. i can only post one pic cause the damn blog upload the pic so slow. IDIOT! :)

Went to Bugis and eat at a very nice place. Wow, so nice that i can't resist. Thanks Fina, Nad! :) thanks to that Enormous Ass for being so LATE. I was so hungry and must wait for him some more. LOL. Seriously, i didn't eat that much for the whole day. but was really hungry at around 6 pm plus.

had my dinner and went off. sorry guys, i will definitely spend more time wid you all next time okay! i really felt that part of my heart has been stabbed by a very sharp arrow. i don't know why. i just felt so painful. so painful that no wound can heal.

wad's wrong wid me? is the world going around? as the saying goes, wad comes around, goes around. did i do bad deeds that GOD is punishing me? oh God, maybe this is all a test from Allah. to test my patience. to see whether i'm strong enough to handle this kind of situation. i'm used to it. life is full of ups and downs. i can't wish for smooth sailing years all the time. need to feel some setbacks as well.

i'm very tired. so tired of playing games wid you. i don't want to drag this matter. just leave me Alone. exams is next week. I need to get my butts and my eyes and hands and start revising now. Seriously, it is less than a week. God, please give me strength and the will to carry on wid my life. please make my dreams come true.

2 more days. just 2 more days and i'm nervous. nervous to the extreme that it will produce bad news to me. i don't want. i want good news. news that makes me jump high and excited for just a little while. perhaps, after tml, i must get prepared wid any kind of news.

either it is bad/good news, i will not give up. i will persevere till the end. :)

movie treats wid my lovely girl friend tml. Hehe. :) hey, must have fun tml okay! i promise, i won't be late. Haha. :) good night.

I'm not in the best of mood to talk about work. seems like, they don't need me anymore. Why? Simply because i do not meet to their expectations. Wad the hell. can't you see i'm trying my best? can't you see i'm struggling through the holes to reach your standards? can't you see i'm working hard to prove you wrong? why can't you just understand that i'm giving all the best i could.

if you love to cancel my shifts, by all mean. i don't care anymore. cause i don't want to continue my life by getting hurt in this kind of situation. but i won't give up that easily. i will make sure that i will succeed till the end. just wait & see.

alright. school has been kind of boring lately. not sure why but i just don't feel like waking up early in the morning to attend class. guess, need to self study at home. POM grade : B :)

although a B sounds nice, i'm still not satisfied. i need an A at least. to up my gpa. i need 3 As for the 3 modules. but if 2As and 1B will be fine too. study hard, AB. all the best.

i'm looking for a new job. not sure yet. maybe. i will keep on searching till i got the right job. not giving up, for now at least. send out resumes to 2 jobs. waiting for their reply. hopefully a good reply will do. :)

weather is so weird nowadays. it has been raining cats and dogs. people, get yourself an umbrella in case of emergency. like now, seriously. cause you won't know when will it be sunny or rainy tml or the day after.

i'm in a stage of breaking down. i need a hug. i need a shoulder to lean on. i want to pour all out. i don't want to keep it in my heart for too long, if not i'm gonna go insane.

NATASHA, i miss you. :) meet up soon okay. like soon tauu!




i miss the girl above. she's the only one that i can share my nonsense to the max stories. she brings laughter to my eyes & she's always there by my side to cheer me up whenever i'm down.

she also the one i will laugh wid when we hang out and bought donuts together. she will call me Ah Phat and i will smile for sure. she will hug me when she misses me alot. & i will hug her too.

she's the most bestest greatest friend ever to me. a big sister, to be exact.

thank you so much Natasha. i miss you lots & i will never ever forget you in my life. you're such a good friend & sis to me. i'm thankful to God for that. hang out soon okay. :)




& of course there is others also. Hehe. & to this particular lady. thank you so much. I miss you lots too. will meet up on Thursday for sure. thanks for consoling me. thanks for helping me lots too. & of course we are going on a date this Wednesday. Haha. Can't wait Azyan! :) LOL. lets have fun on that day yeah!

& this lady here is the most funniest girl i ever met. she brightens up my day when we meet up. we call each other MORON when we meet for movie. :) haha. she loves taking pictures and i love to be her Model for that. thank you Azyan. thank you for everything.

i guess that's it. hehe. i can't wait for Drama rehearsals again. i want to see all of my peeps. :) see you all on Thursday. remember to wear the right attire for that day okay. LOL. :)

BYE! :) Holidays coming & i'm looking forward for it. oh yeah 3 more days. just 3 more days. :) wish me the best of luck.

Hello. weather has been so cold these few days. great or not great? maybe it's good that it is raining. perhaps, the hot weather has been overcome by the cold rain. :) wad a feeling.

Busy busy week. working just now and my leg is still cramp cause of the physical training i had yesterday. was not prepared for it but still, do the best i can. has been so long since i last exercise. :) i know, lazy me right? haha.

ETP powerpoint is complete. just wait for the day to present. i hope it will go smoothly. tml is another day for sch and as well as working. get myself prepared for Thursday as result will be out. i need it, please. :) all i can do is pray to God for help and answer my prayers.

i just find out that i miss working for so long. it has been such a while since i step onto my work place. the feeling of it, reciprocates. i miss the music, the laughter & the smell of Famous Amos, just downstairs where i work. :)

& seeing my colleagues once again, brightens up my day wid a smile on my face. wad a day. :)

please don't treat me so good. if you treat me so good, i might fall in love wid you. so please, don't.