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Alright, school has been kinda okay right now. Fund raising is finally over and done with. I'm left with an Event to do at Sentosa this 16 June. Urgh! Okay moving on, rehearsals has been okay uh. June is coming soon and we have to finish all up by next week.

Hopefully that, everything will turn out smoothly. :) I'm working tomorrow but so not looking forward to it. Work place is so small and oh my god. I have no idea but I am feeling a little bit lethargic and so freaking tired of projects. I know, it is so important but I don't know uh.

Just too much. But, I won't give up cause I want to go Poly. :) I'm currently addicted to HP games now. Haha. Oh yeah, the picture above was taken by Abg Afi. I love the pic so much! Haha. Friends said that I have slim down a bit. Thank you so much. Although, I don't see much different in me, but thank you to those who made my day. :)

I don't know what to say about you anymore. I'm tired of your nonsense and your attitude. PERIOD. Oh by the way, I can't wait to meet up with my LOVELIES! Miss you all so so much! We shall have fun on that very day!

p/s - 6 more days. I'm coming. :)

get a
life now
pleaseee.

So, I stop for a while trying my very hard to recall the most memorable days of my life. But, nothing came to my mind. Nevertheless, I do enjoyed today's session. Eventhough it was just a couple of hours but, those hours meant alot to me. Thanks Mimi and Elfie!

Sometimes, I envy those people who are in a relationship and doing quite well together. I envy those people who hold hands and hug each other tightly. I do feel like I want to be with sum1 but I don't know.

Questions keep on coming in and I'm exhausted. I know relationships is not easy. Somehow, you will get hurt but I'm ready for all that. Relationships are like a rollercoaster ride. It goes up and down as and when they like.

I have always been telling myself to stay single but maybe due to the population that is around me makes me change my mind. I know right now I should focus on my studies but till when? Till when must I stay single and till when must I pretend like I don't need anybody?

Apart from that, I'm thankful cause God has given me such wonderful friends. Friends that makes me laugh and friends that makes me happy. :) Maybe, I should just wait for the right time to come. & if it did, a million times, I'll say thank you.

School is getting quite okay. :) Tomorrow will be the last day for fund raising. Thank God. I'm going to finish up my projects ASAP. All the best! :)

Goodnight. Love you all so much! :) p/s, how are you? I miss you so.

so let
me be
the one.

Alright, I would like to say thank you to both of my greatest friends, Izzat and Fadhilah. Thank you for being there with me through out the ups and downs. I really adore our friendship and I won't forget both of you.

We may argued for no particular reasons but still, our friendship goes on strong as always. Fadhilah and Izzat, if I ever hurt both of your feelings, I am deeply sorry as I am only a human being. No one is perfect.

I am sure and I know that our friendship will last long. Even if we were to go our separate lives, I will always remember both of you. Remember that friendship will last long if we believe in ourselves and we show that we can. :)

& just now was really a fun night with both of you. Although it was just a short period of time, I really enjoyed those cam whore sessions and those late night meals and laughter. I really love both of you.

Before I forget, both of you will always remain in my heart. Let's meet up again one day okay? Let's enjoy together and laugh together. Izzat, do take care when you are going to NS okay. :)

Till now. :) Goodnight! Love you all.

friendship that
binds together
never apart.

Suddenly I have the urged to take a picture of this 3 beautiful people. :) I was tempted and the place was really nice. So, I asked them to pose for me and so they did! Haha. I really wanted to be a photographer but then I decided to changed my ambition.

Ratna is more suitable to be as one. As for me, just continue taking shots whenever I feel like it. The best thing is that, I really enjoyed my day with them and it was really fun. Without them, my life would be useless. :) So, I am really thankful.

Not only them, but others too. Got alot of names but better keep it to myself. Aside from that, work is kinda tiring but enjoyable. Sales just started and I am so freaking tired. I really can't wait to work at another outlet. The place is too damn cramp and small! Urgh!

I heard, Bugis Junction going to open Cotton On. Haha! I want to work there! Confirm alot of people will shop over there! :) I really miss working with my old parkway parade staffs! I really miss you all! :(

Hopefully, we all can work together okay. Pray hard. :) school assignments are such a torture. & plus test coming up real soon. Tomorrow I got Event Management Test. I really have no idea but well, let's see how I cope.

& the day after tomorrow will be another test. Oh god! I really need to study hard. I want to go Poly. :) Hehe. Okay, I'm not sure whether tomorrow training I am needed or not. Just wait for the msg.

By the way, I decided to just stop this feeling of mine. Nevertheless, you will always remain in my heart. :) Miss you.

See you all next time k. Goodnight.

stop denying
and stop
pretending.

Before I start, to the above person, I miss you oh so much! :) Hehe. Please make one more gathering k. See youu! It's exhausting to see myself running here and there just for the sake of earning money. Work has not been given me less pressure but in fact adding pressure to it. Same goes to school where you will be busy with piles and piles of projects and assignments.

Work is just so tiring for me. But, all I can do is Relax. Sales will be up tomorrow onwards. Cotton On fans, do drop by to any Cotton On outlets for Sales. :) I have been spending most of my time outdoors rather than indoors. It's tiring, seriously.

I need a break. Even if June holidays were to come, I will be busy with school projects and production. Urgh! I really need a break. Whatever it is, I am glad that holidays are coming soon. So, I will have some break to relieve myself from all the projects that I'm facing.

Nevertheless, I will still do my part for my projects as I know it is so important for my grades. Yes, weather is so freaking hot nowadays. My skin will get darker sooner or later.

Have not been going Sports & Wellness so I decided to be a good student and turn up for S & W. How I hate S & W so much, still attendance is compulsory. I'm working tomorrow. Am able to meet Faizal.

A mat rep and a little bit plum who is not that good looking. I wonder whether Zan told me just now is really true. :) Haha. I shall see it for myself tomorrow. Oh yeah, I can't wait for photo shoot! Hehe. :)

By the way, yesterday was the best! Let's do it again, shall we? Haha. p/s, I have started to miss you when you're not around. Should I move on or should I reminisce about the past? I wonder.

sooner or
later you
are leaving.

Hello.

Sometimes in life, you tend to smile alot. But actually behind those smiles, hid your tears. Tears that no one ever saw before. You show the other side of you just not to let others know your problems.

You look happy but actually in fact, you are crying. Crying inside your heart. Not letting people discover it. I have been through all that alot of times. & it hurts badly. It is something you hold back for so long until you realised you needed somebody to help you along the way.

You might think that you are independent cause you did not let others know about your situation but in fact you are weak. Doing all this, will lead you to nowhere. I did that too. I tend to hide certain facts/things from others. Even my family members.

Is not that I don't trust them or I don't have the guts too, it is just that I want to deal this on my own. I know it is wrong to keep certain things from my family but I don't want to put a huge burden on them. It is something personal.

Dear God, punish me for my bad deeds but don't punish me for something I did that is against parents permission. Its wrong but I don't wish to trouble them. Friends told me it is not a sin but I felt bad.

But the harsh words you told me just now, makes me want to cry. Mummy, I know you don't like us to lie to you. It is not a lie. It is just something I do for my own good. I know I should not keep things from you but people make mistakes.

I am really sorry for what I did. I know you don't wish history to repeat itself. But when you told me that I'm worse than my siblings, my tears start to drop. Just because of one mistake, you judge me without knowing the real situation I'm facing.

After so much hard work I put in, you hurt my feelings. I studied hard for the sake of going Poly. & I really want to. Yes, I might be slow in things but I have ambition, you see. If you really think I'm useless, I think I should just run away from home for the time being.

Let you calm down first. & if you have sort things out, maybe I should return home. Once again, I'm sorry. :(

words means
nothing to
me anymore.

Hello Hello.

Been busy with school and stuff. Rehearsal is getting serious now. No more playing. Got to buck up my character. Urgh! Fund raising thing is going okay. The weather is getting from bad to worse. So unpredictable.

Nowadays, weather is so hot. Can get heat stroke sey! :) haha. Meeting again tomorrow for the Games leader. Urgh! Must bring laptop. I am so tired of meetings. But, what to do. Just got to attend the meeting.

Alright, school has been alright. Not less, not more. Just average. I am so tired. I felt that my whole body is aching. Is this the sign that I am getting old? I don't know. I am still young. Haha.

I love the picture above. So, unique! & the pose. haha. So natural. :) I don't know why but I really can't made up my mind. At times, I wish to let you go but the feelings came inevitably. Nothing can stop it at all.

I am afraid that I am the only one hoping for a miracle to happen. Maybe, this is Test from God. I should just accept it with open arms. Urgh. This feelings is so urgh! Guess wad, July is ending soon.

June is coming and I hope that it will be a great month to start with. Projects are a Killer and exams are around the Corner. Haha. Got to study hard. :) Yeah!

I'm nervous and anxious. How many more days left. Mimi. Hurry, practice okay. I'm sure we can do it. All the best to both of us. Alright then, goodnight. :) Love you all!

let time
heal your
wound.

Hello Hello.

Just got back from rehearsal. Was a tiring day for me. School has been a torture lately and meetings are just driving me insane! Urgh! Projects are halfway done. Thank God, my laptop already have the Microsoft Word. Thanks to Ilah! :)

Yeah! Going to get Cotton On Voucher! Haha. Time to shop for new clothes and shorts! Woohoo! I have been sleeping lately for the past how many weeks. Oh God. So damn tired. Maybe I should start on coming home early and sleep early but time don't allow me to.

Busy with rehearsals, projects and work. I guess, my routine will still be the same. I need another job so that I can settle my bills immediately. Please, just give me one more job okay. :) CA is coming up real soon.

Time for me to flip through the books and start revising now. No time to delay. :) I really need to buck up on certain things. Event Management, I really need to self study. It is a must. Tourism, hopefully whatever that Mr Aw taught, will be useful. Office Admin, Thank God Ms Kathy went through those that is important.

Right now, all I need is to relax and calm down. :) I can do it. For sure! All the best Faiz. Oh by the way, thank you. Those words you said the other day, blown me away. :) I really cannot believe what you had said to me but still thank you.

& the hug. I wish I could hug you longer. For now, just stay. Stay the way it is. Good night people! Love you all.

you are
just perfect
to me.

Hello Hello.

In less than 2 months, everything gonna be different. It is the time to get serious and be serious. My first ever Musical play in a Malay Production. I'm so thankful that I am given a chance to show my talent.

Although, I am not really good in Malay, but still I decided to give it a try. Acting has been my passion since Secondary School but not my ambition. :) Yes, it has never been my Ambition. To be honest, I always wanted to be a Teacher. See how it goes okay. :)

Rehearsals has been great. Tough but awesome. :) Really can't wait for the show! :) I think I got to finish up memorising my Act 2 lines. Seriously, I have no time to read through my lines. Its okay, when there's a will, there's a way. :)

Variasian Peeps!

2 more months guys and gals! Give all you can okay! I am so happy to be in this group. All of you are nice people and I'm sure we can work together. :) Although we faced ups and downs, but that's part and parcel of life.

To those who are sick, do take care of your health okay. Drink lots and lots of water. :) Get well soon okay. :) Hehe.

That's all. Goodnight! See you all soon. LOVES!


stay together
with me
tonight.

Dear Classmates.

I miss you all like freaking much. Time flies so fast and all us are busy with our own lives. I know its hard to even meet up for drinks or hang out again. Some of you are going NS and even some of you are in NS.

Words can't describe how I really miss you all and I do believe that we can meet up sooner or later. Although we do face ups and downs together, we are still friends and staying strong together. I won't let go of our friendship. No one can separate us. & I really mean it.

I miss the laughter, the nonsense, the hang outs, the fun, the games we had, the craziness and everything! I really do not regret being with you all for the past 4 years in Secondary School. I really enjoyed all the times we had together.

Oh God, how I wish I could turn back the time and restart all over again. The happiness and the unhappiness we shared. It is truly amazing how we can get so close to each other. Don't worry, all of you will always remain in my heart forever.

Do meet up soon, okay. Real soon. :) Muhd Faiz.

just like
how I
miss yesterday.

Hello Hello.

My friends and I were so bored that we did this. Haha. Above picture is our creation. :) Haha. Well, nice right? I am so happy just now that I got a chance to actually explore TP. Thanks Ratna! :) Hehe. School was kinda lenient towards us. Fund raising thing will be conducting on next Thursday.

Had our test and not sure how much will I get this time. Haha. Just hoping for the best. As soon as school ends, headed myself back home and get myself prepared and meet Ratna. Supposed to meet Asyraf at Woodlands first but due to the heavy rain, I decided to meet him later. :)

Projects are just a burden to me. Urgh! I need help, seriously. Rehearsal were okay. had our scene practice and luckily I gave all out just now. :) A sigh of relief. Tomorrow will be another long day for me. Haha. :)

Although I envy those in Poly, I still pity them. They have like alot of assignments and it is like clashing with one another. Oh my god. I'm trying to put myself in their shoes and I know it is so damn stressful. JIA YOU Ratna, Syirah, Ain and Hafiz Hussin. :)

I cannot believe what I heard earlier this morning. I am so shocked that my expression totally went blank for a moment. How could you be so cruel as to even back stab your own friend despite that she has been tolerating you for quite some time? She has been nice to you and this is how you repay her? Oh my god. Luckily I was not her. I mean, how could you even said that?

Don't use your disability for sympathy. & now I know why people are keeping a distance away from you. It is the way you bring yourself. The way you show yourself to others are just too plain. You keep things to yourself and not let others know what's going on and you tend to keep quiet. How are we supposed to help you?

Please eh. I just hope that you change. That's all. Its for your own good tau. When you told her that this is how you used to back stab your other friend, I am totally shocked! You did that before and you're doing it again? How cruel can you be. Can't believe you are talam dua muka - it means two faced in English.

Enough about you. Just make my heart boiled. Haiz. Well, exams are coming nearer. I need to start my self study now. haha. :) I can't lie anymore! I'm so in love with you! Urgh! Just don't make it stop.

My body is aching like hell & I'm sleepy. Goodnight everyone! :)

such a
fool to
met you.

Hello Hello.

First of all, I just want to say that I am freaking tired of going to and fro the same place all over again and not doing anything. Why did you guys keep on changing the schedule? When I expect it to be what it is, something else crops up. Do you know that bus fares are not cheap nowadays? Gosh, stick to one please.

Alright, my projects are almost completed. Yes, I'm using the word almost because it is still on going and is not yet complete. But thankful cause my workload has decreased a little today. Fund raising was just okay for me. Well, managed to complete my task. Haha.

Okay, school starts as early as 8am tomorrow and I really need to attend the first lesson. Always skip the first lesson. So bad uh. :) I have been thinking long and hard. I know this is my final year in ITE and I have to do my very best to have a place in Poly.

But then, I am scared because I don't know whether I will get the chance to go Poly or not. Sometimes, it worries me alot and I would ended up thinking it for so long. I do and I really want to go Poly. My gpa is not that good enough and I really need to buck up for this term.

I really hope that everything goes the way I plan. :) School has been giving me less pressure but more projects. Haha. I really can't wait for the weekends! Mr Firefighter, meet up soon okay! :)

Oh by the way, I having second thoughts on the person I have a crush on. Urgh! It just hurt me so bad. I do like the person but is like I'm the only one that is really serious into this. I don't want to get false hope. & everything just shattered. Urgh! I hate this kind of feeling. Its like I'm the one that is waiting patiently but ended up getting hurt. We are getting quite well. Just don't end here.

Well, let's just see how it goes and where does it stop at. Haha. :) I'm waiting for good news but is the good news waiting for me? I hope so. I have been eating alot nowadays. I need to lose weight. In less than 2 months, I will be facing a challenge. Hope everything goes smoothly. '

Got to go now. Goodnight. Sweet dreams and take care. :)

rushing out
of time
now.

Hello Hello.

School has been keeping me busy with projects clashing with one another. I'm getting tired of school but still I do come to school. Not that I want to give up, just that I'm so tired. But, just put that aside for a while, shall we? :)

Okay, for now at least I'm able to ease my burden thanks to my group mates who has been kind to me to help me pull through this together. Thank you so much, guys! On a brighter note, I am enjoying myself with my lovely friends in Variasi. :) what else can I ask for? Hehe.

To You - I have been thinking so hard and long. Perhaps, I have already made up my decision. It has been the toughest decision to make. I like you, yes I do. I miss you and I really do. But, I know its pointless for me to continue this one sided love affair. You know, we need two hands to clap and I don't wish to think that I'm the only person that is really into this. For now, let me just see you from far. Its more than enough. :)

Projects deadline are getting closer and I really need to get it done ASAP. Fund raising thing again tomorrow! :) Urgh! I'm just not that into Fund Raising! Haha. I need to get the Microsoft Office CD. I need to finish up my projects.

I can't bear to fail right now. Not anymore. NYP, wait for me okay. Just wait for me. A few more months to go. Just make sure that you will reserve a seat for me. :) I need you. I need to get in POLY. Please, make my dream come true.

Enough for now. Got to go. Goodnight! I'm in love with someone! How? :(

I miss
your smile
like before.

Hello there.

Okay, was tired as usual. Haha. Did not attend my first lesson in school as I was late. Alright, I am always late for the first lesson. Maybe, I am so lazy to attend school? Haha. That aside for a while. Kolej 56 Training is so fun! We got to sing song and have fun together even though there are alot of people absent. Please eh, if you all can't make it, please inform Attiyah in advance. :)

I have not been watching movies for quite some time and I think it is time for me head down to the theatre and watch movies! Might be meeting up Mr Firefighter this Saturday or Sunday! :) Can't wait to see you lah! Now, you're getting much more muscular uh. Haha. Don't action eh!

As I was walking home just now, I wonder what will happen to me in few years to come? Will I get a better job and will I start my own family or will I just continue my studies in University? I don't know. Life is short.

I got to spend my days as much as I can and not to miss anything out. I'm scared. Yes I am. I'm scared of what's gonna happen to me in the future? Time can only tell and I can only wait for it to arrive. :)

The Bottom Line

When the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping.

In Detail

When you find that the going gets tough for you, why not sit back and relax and go spend your time doing shopping. It may helps a little bit and for sure, you will enjoy doing it so. Just spend whatever you can and whenever you can if necessary. I believe you will like it. :)

I'm so tired after going out the whole day. Luckily for me, I have time to rest at home too. Should I go tomorrow? Haha. :) That person might be going. I don't know. We shall see.

& oh yes, for all your information, when I was young, my ambition is to be a Teacher not an Actor. :) & that explains the answer for my quiz at Facebook. Hehe.

Got to go now. Goodnight everyone! Love you all!

a mirror
reflects who
you are.

I feel the urge of changing my blogskin again. Don't know why but this one is kinda cool! :) haha. Love it love it love it! Okay, backtrack. I am pretty much the same old Faiz. Celebrate Mummy's birthday by ordering Canadian Pizza.

Okay, I love the Singapura Special. Awesome to the max! Mum, even if you're full of white hairs or getting old every year, I will still LOVE you the way you are! :) thanks for bringing me up and thanks for everything!

I didn't go to school just now. Was super duper tired. So texted my friend to informed her. Haha, when I woke up at around 3pm plus, I realised that my inbox got 4 messages and it is from her. Sorry eh Ilah.

I was really tired. But, will go to school tomorrow! :) At certain point of time, I do have the feeling of quitting school and just end my studies there. But then, I want to go POLY. & for that dream of mine to come true, I got to show that I really want to study and prove to them that I will achieve good grades.

Yes, it is gonna be tough but everyone faces difficulties in life. Not only me. :) I should be thankful that I have come this far and not giving up. JIA YOU! :) I still believe that, when there's a will, there's a way.

I am pretty much happy with my life now. Projects is killing me but put it aside for a while and let's just say that I'm enjoying my days at work and also with my friends in Variasi. I am glad to be in Variasi. :)

Oh yes, I did quite a number of quizzes in Facebook. Haha. Random. :) Okay uh, got to go. Goodnight everyone. Love you all to pieces!

in my
mind is
you.

Hello Readers!

Okay. I am feeling shagged, tired, lethargic and fatigue. To make it simple, that is what I am feeling now. haha. All in One! Yesterday training was okay. I'm in love with Salsa! :) Hehe. After training headed down to Changi Village Hotel for Hafiz and Mel birthday celebration! I tell you, the room is super duper cosy. :) Haha.

Was really tired cause we rushed to Changi Hotel after our rehearsal. Had chocolate cake and it taste delicious. After such, webcam with Ratna and Hani. Haha. Webcaming with them is so fun! As I was feeling tired and sleepy, I decided to sleep instead. Hafiz Lolita, Abg Khailee, Mimi, Aee, Miminanggal and Mel went hunting at night. So me and Kak Hannah went to sleep.

The next morning, I went to wash my face and rinse my mouth and went back home. It was raining heavily. As I got work, I went home and bath and change clothes and went straight to work. I thought Parkway Parade Cotton On Mega store is already opened but in the end, it was just a temporary shop.

It was so squeezy like hell. There were no men's clothes. Only sell women's clothes. It is just a temporary shop so yeah. I tell you, I can die working at that kind of environment. Customers keeps on coming in and going out. At that point of time, I felt like I wanted to shout at them and tell them to LEAVE! :) Haha.

Okay, maybe not to that extend lah. haha. But seriously, I was not in a good mood just now. I can just scream my lungs out if I wanted to. Okay, work is tiring as usual. I felt like quitting at that moment and just leave.

But for the sake of money, I persevere. :) PERIOD.

Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers! Thank you for being such a Wonderful Mother to me. I love you, Mummy! & yes, Happy Birthday to you! Haha. :) Your birthday is one day after Mother's Day. No wonder you're so special to me. :) LOVE YOU!

Alright, I really feel that I need a long break. Maybe a holiday will do. Shall see how it goes. Okay then, shall end here. Update more soon! :)

Goodnight everyone and sweet dreams! Love you all! :)

let's continue
again shall
we?

I am tired of everything. Yes, everything. Not that I want to complain or what but I am just so tired. Sometimes, I don't even have the energy to wake up in the morning and go to school to study. I rather stay at home & sleep.

But, this is not what I want in life. I want to go Poly and pursue my diploma. That is why, I am trying my very best to get good grades. I would tend to get bored of school but at a point of time I would really enjoy myself in school with friends to joke around with.

Yes, particularly the reason to why I am attending school is because, I got to meet friends and hang out with them. :) But, I do listen to teachers in class. Everyone is complaining that school is getting more and more boring but we should ask ourselves instead to why is it boring. Is it because, you lost interest in studies? Or you don't like the teachers over there?

There are too many answers and questions to why we think we hate school. But, I beg to differ. I don't really hate school. Just that I am sick of flipping through the text book and have to read through the whole sentences that is written on it.

Yes, maybe I am complaining too much about school but then come to think of it, I'm here for two things - To get good grades & go Poly. :) Yes, only this two things. Enough about schools. :)

Okay, I'm pretty much enjoying my drama session but at the same point of time, I'm getting tired. Not tired of acting. Just that I'm tired of going to and fro to the same place all over again. I can't take leave anymore. Schedule is tight. & rehearsals is getting more intensive.

Dear God, I really hope that this production will be a successful one on July. :) I miss the whole bunch of my classmates! As I mentioned before, I don't hate anyone of them but we are not in good terms. :)

But its okay. I don't really mind. PERIOD. Okay, off to bed now. See you all soon!

Tomorrow rehearsal at Bukit Batok. Urgh! A long journey again. :) Goodnight!

its you
that makes
things changed.

Let me share a little of what happened in my life right now.

Today, was a waste of my time going back to school just for the fund raising thing. As I mentioned at my previous post, that I don't know what's going on and so. From there, Ilah and I were clueless with the word HUH on our foreheads.

Yes, we are not blaming others for what happened today. Just got to blame ourselves for not be attentive in class. But to put it in good sentence, I rather said may not be attentive. :) Despite that, we did came to school and did help a little bit by going around asking people to buy stuffs.

This fund raising thing is for the Sentosa Event which we must organise for the new intakes. :) Yes, its killing me like hell! I'm not in the mood to actually organise a real event for them cause I'm so busy with other stuffs too. Like my commitment to work, school and production.

With another workload to carry, I'm dying soon. Yes, its not easy in Higher Nitec compared to Nitec. But, if I were to join Poly next year, it would be more worse than this, so no use for me to complain much about my school life. PERIOD.

However, despite all this stressfulness I'm facing, I'm still surviving and is happy with my life. To be honest, I am really grateful to those that still regard me as a friend and still accept me for who I am. :)

Because of them, I am still strong and is able to face any obstacles that may strike me. Like the saying goes, No matter how tough the going is, I won't give up. Particularly, in everything. Alright, so far I'm happy with what I have now.

Oh by the way, Ilah, don't give up okay. I'm sure you can face this problem of yours. Yes, I know its hard for you. Same goes to me. As long as we persevere, I believe that we could be able to make it. Just give all the best you can and believe in yourself. :)

To end this post of mine, I just want to say to you all that - don't give up that easily. the ladder of success may not be easy but as long as you put your heart and mind to it, I'm sure you will be able to reach your goals. :)

Goodnight everyone. Have a good sleep. Love you all!

just a
thought of
you again.

Reflections on the water,
I share with you on my blank paper.
Call out your name as if I don't know you,
or I've had you replaced.

Were you real, and were you here?
What is this feeling that I fear?
Open up and make things clear,
did you love me?

Screaming aloud won't help but it makes me feel better,
nothing compares to this.
Why are we still here shouldn't we have moved,
and still we stay,
I cannot be with you,
let me go.

The scars upon your head,
pierce through my soul yet I can't love you.
The way that you love me,
why can't you see that like this,
we won't last.

Trust me we will be just fine,
let go of this feeling you feign inside.
I know in just a matter of time,
we'll be fine.



I love this song plus the lyrics. It was one of the best song I ever heard. :) Just got the urge to blog again and type out the lyrics here. :)

Maybe one day, I would want to write a lyrics. Haha. I know it is not easy but, believe in myself and I'm sure I can do it! :) hehe. Okay lah, just wanna type out the lyrics, nothing much.

Okay goodnight everyone! Have a good sleep okay! :)

p/s; I really have no freaking idea about tomorrow fund raising. :( urgh! Its killing me!

Dear Diary.

Haha. Went to school and was late for lecture class. Haha. Thanks to Ilah lah. She always late. Okay, not always but almost everyday. :) Hehe. Okay, someone came up to me and say, Faiz, you slim alot. Haha.

Okay, should I take it as a compliment or a sarcastic remark? Haha. I slim alot? You must be dreaming. I still got fats in my body and I'm still not in a good shape. But, thanks anyway. Appreciate it. Because of that, you make me happy. Haha. :)

Backtrack, I am enjoying school so far. Not that I want to, but yes I am really enjoying the lesson. But when it comes to Event Management, I will tend to get tired easily. :) Haha. Oh yes, I drank alot today. Not only today but everyday. Maybe I need more water than food. Haha.

I have no freaking idea on what's gonna happen tomorrow. There is no class but need to come back for some fund raising thing. I'm lost, confused and blur. :) I need a smack on my head to go back to normal. :)

Projects after projects. Oh Sharks! Yes, on the bright side I do enjoy projects but then on the other side, projects are a KILLER! Yes, it is a KILLER! When you're doing a group project, you got to crack those brain of yours thinking of what to write and find informations on it.

It is so troublesome but luckily it is a group project rather than you doing it yourself with only one brain to think. That's pure pathetic! :) I'm so hyper today in class. Haha. Not sure why. Maybe because it is Wednesday! Haha. Lame!

Alright, I want to be happy go lucky person. I want to be as happy as I can be. & at times, I will. Trust me, if you were to hang out with me, you know how hyper active I can be.

Oh before I forget, my handphone died on me yesterday night! Yes, it died on me! When I got back home from rehearsal, my phone does not work. The touch screen is spoiled. & now I'm using my brother's Nokia phone.

I need to buy a new hp ASAP. Haha. :) Seriously, I'm broke. Okay, I got to go and find new job as I'm still on my leave. Not sure when will I start working back at Cotton On. Damn, I miss working life! Haha. :)

Yes. Dance tomorrow and I'm freaking happy! Can't wait for that. Haha. I'm craving for Popeye's. Been waiting to eat that. Well, got to go now. Nothing much to blog about.

Take care everyone. God bless you all! :) LOVES!

I'm always
hyperactive to
the max!

Dear Diary.

I had an awesome day in school. Although, class ends slightly early, still I got to meet my best friend, Ilah. Haha. Everyday when we meet, we surely laugh like mad and talk crap. :) that's the thing we like to do.

Okay, to my dearest daughter, Aida. Haha. Not my real daughter lah just something I know, she know. You all don't know. Hehe. Okay, daddy is not emo just that got some probs going on now. Daddy is still happy as always and so fortunate to have you as my daughter. Be good okay. You and your younger sister, do take care.

I will see you tomorrow. :) Backtrack, I know school has giving me lots and lots of pressure lately. I'm coping up with my stress now. Projects are like killing me. My group mates and I are still discussing on our projects. & to do an Event for the new intake Business Admin, is giving more headaches to me. Urgh!

Tomorrow is another day for school. & ends at 5pm. I'm going to rehearsal tomorrow. Yes, I am. Not that I want to but seriously I can't take leave frm Variasi anymore. Intensive training is coming real soon and tomorrow got my scene. I got to be there for the blockings. :)

I'm in the mood to go shopping but I'm broke. Pay day is coming soon! 2 days more! :) Haha. But, I got to pay my bills. Sharks! :) I got to go now. Wanna eat. Very hungry. Blog soon! :)

let's rearrange
the song
again.

Dear Diary.

I'm feeling much better now. So much relieved. Its like I can feel the air once again and breathe normally. Perhaps, its a good thing for me. Yes, it is a good thing and I love it. :) tomorrow school starts at 8am. Well, I know it is damn early but then my class ends early as well. Haha.

I love Monday and Thursday. :) the reason because, school ends very early and I can spend the rest of the time at home or going out with friends. Excluding Friday, where all schools ends very early. :)

My appetite gained back a week ago. Haha. & I have been craving for lots and lots of foods. But, I want to lose weight. I got to. I need to shed those fats inside my body and make sure I lose 3 kg a month. Haha.

I'm very much in love with dancing. I don't know why but I just love to dance! Probably because, the Musical that I'm in requires me to dance and I'm always ready for it. Haha. I'm so random today.

Sometimes, I can be very happy and hyperactive. Sometimes, I will tend to be so emotional and sensitive. LOL. just for your information lah. Oh yes, my pay is coming in very soon! :) 3 more days and my pay will come. :)

I have no idea where will I be working at yet. I'm still on leave till further notice. So to all my friends who want discount, Wait for my call/sms. I will inform you all once I find out my working outlet. :)

p/s; the song that I have been searching for, finally I got it! Haha. Yes, I have the song that I want. Cool uh. :)

Mimi, think positive okay. I know who you love most. I understand that it is difficult for you to erase your past as you have been in that kind of situation before. But trust me, if you believe in him and believe in yourself, history won't repeat itself.

As a friend I can only lend you a helping hand and give you advice but in the end you are the one that make decision. Choose wisely. :) Miss you lah & see you soon! :)

To my both wonderful friends : Congrats, on getting through the next round for Anugerah. Wish you all the best in the second round. :)

I have nothing much to talk about. Okay, got to go now. I'm tired. Goodnight! :)

washing my
hands off
you.

Dear Diary.

I can't really describe about today's training. Not really in the mood to talk about it. Let's just say that I do enjoy a little bit here and there but not really exciting. PERIOD. :) After which, headed myself down to Woodlands together with Abg Khailee, Kak Hannah, Miminanggal, Hafiz Lolita, Mimi, Ratna and Aee. :)

Yes, being with them is like my close family. They simply makes me laugh like one mad person and it was a nice hang out with them. :) Hang out more often okay. Hehe. Basically, I have no plans for tomorrow as it will be a Family Day so if I'm not wrong, spending my time with my siblings to my Auntie House. :)

It has been such a while since I really spend my quality and most precious time with my Family. & tomorrow shall be the day for sure. Haha. I'm a happy person actually. I really love my family. I love you MUM! :)

Alright, not coming for Tuesday rehearsal as school ends late and I have projects to do. Will be back on Thursday, yeah. :)

To you - I don't know why but I have this feeling that I don't wish to bother about you and your personal lives again. & I think I will just take it as if you are just someone that I know for a second and the next day just a stranger to me. I have nothing to do with you anymore and you have nothing to do with me anymore. I don't hate you but I think I have enough. PERIOD.

Moving on. I have been spending most of my time outside and Mummy is angry at me. haha. Sorry lah Mummy. I love you, okay! :) This term, will be the busiest term for me as I have like 5 projects with test and exams coming up soon. I'm going crazy, in any minute which I don't wish that to happen.

But now, I just want to sort things through. Need to think what I really want in life and my goals. Future is in my hand, now. If there is an opportunity for me, I will just grab it. :) I shall do just that.

Nothing much to talk about my life. Well, I guess that's it. Got to go now.

Take care everyone. Goodnight and sweet dreams. Love you all! :)

in silent,
I leave
you behind.

Dear Diary.

Training was so awesome today and yesterday. Was really great! I'm in love with dancing now. Not that I wanna dance but then dancing makes me lose weight! Haha. :) Awesome right! :) Okay, supposedly want to blog yesterday but was very tired. :)

Okay, school has been kinda fun actually. I like doing projects with my group mates and discuss about our next plan. I really can't wait to get out from that school. To be honest, I'm excited for Poly next year. Hoping for a vacancy for me. Reserve for me one seat, NYP. :) Hehe.

Okay, exams, test, projects are clashing with one another and with my rehearsals on going plus working, I need to plan for my own schedule next time. Must know how to prioritize it. I have been cutting on foods, expenses and such. Now, I'm like super duper broke.

I got some unpaid bills to settle and my pay is not in yet. 6th May 09, hurry! :) I have been coming home late for the past few days with tired face and indescribable mood. I'm so shagged and I feel like my bones about to crack, in any minute of time.

But, doing those dance moves make me awake. I'm not really active in my CCA nowadays. Perhaps, I need a break for now. Studies are much more important but then CCA helps to increase our gpa. :) Exams is in 4 months time and I really hope that I will get better grades.

There will be rehearsal tomorrow. Gosh, I'm so tired. Alright, nothing else to blog about. I must be home early tomorrow before Mum gets angry. Got to go now.

See you all soon. Take care everyone & goodnight! :)

when I'm
lonely you
call me up.

Alright, school has been kinda okay right now. Fund raising is finally over and done with. I'm left with an Event to do at Sentosa this 16 June. Urgh! Okay moving on, rehearsals has been okay uh. June is coming soon and we have to finish all up by next week.

Hopefully that, everything will turn out smoothly. :) I'm working tomorrow but so not looking forward to it. Work place is so small and oh my god. I have no idea but I am feeling a little bit lethargic and so freaking tired of projects. I know, it is so important but I don't know uh.

Just too much. But, I won't give up cause I want to go Poly. :) I'm currently addicted to HP games now. Haha. Oh yeah, the picture above was taken by Abg Afi. I love the pic so much! Haha. Friends said that I have slim down a bit. Thank you so much. Although, I don't see much different in me, but thank you to those who made my day. :)

I don't know what to say about you anymore. I'm tired of your nonsense and your attitude. PERIOD. Oh by the way, I can't wait to meet up with my LOVELIES! Miss you all so so much! We shall have fun on that very day!

p/s - 6 more days. I'm coming. :)

get a
life now
pleaseee.

So, I stop for a while trying my very hard to recall the most memorable days of my life. But, nothing came to my mind. Nevertheless, I do enjoyed today's session. Eventhough it was just a couple of hours but, those hours meant alot to me. Thanks Mimi and Elfie!

Sometimes, I envy those people who are in a relationship and doing quite well together. I envy those people who hold hands and hug each other tightly. I do feel like I want to be with sum1 but I don't know.

Questions keep on coming in and I'm exhausted. I know relationships is not easy. Somehow, you will get hurt but I'm ready for all that. Relationships are like a rollercoaster ride. It goes up and down as and when they like.

I have always been telling myself to stay single but maybe due to the population that is around me makes me change my mind. I know right now I should focus on my studies but till when? Till when must I stay single and till when must I pretend like I don't need anybody?

Apart from that, I'm thankful cause God has given me such wonderful friends. Friends that makes me laugh and friends that makes me happy. :) Maybe, I should just wait for the right time to come. & if it did, a million times, I'll say thank you.

School is getting quite okay. :) Tomorrow will be the last day for fund raising. Thank God. I'm going to finish up my projects ASAP. All the best! :)

Goodnight. Love you all so much! :) p/s, how are you? I miss you so.

so let
me be
the one.

Alright, I would like to say thank you to both of my greatest friends, Izzat and Fadhilah. Thank you for being there with me through out the ups and downs. I really adore our friendship and I won't forget both of you.

We may argued for no particular reasons but still, our friendship goes on strong as always. Fadhilah and Izzat, if I ever hurt both of your feelings, I am deeply sorry as I am only a human being. No one is perfect.

I am sure and I know that our friendship will last long. Even if we were to go our separate lives, I will always remember both of you. Remember that friendship will last long if we believe in ourselves and we show that we can. :)

& just now was really a fun night with both of you. Although it was just a short period of time, I really enjoyed those cam whore sessions and those late night meals and laughter. I really love both of you.

Before I forget, both of you will always remain in my heart. Let's meet up again one day okay? Let's enjoy together and laugh together. Izzat, do take care when you are going to NS okay. :)

Till now. :) Goodnight! Love you all.

friendship that
binds together
never apart.

Suddenly I have the urged to take a picture of this 3 beautiful people. :) I was tempted and the place was really nice. So, I asked them to pose for me and so they did! Haha. I really wanted to be a photographer but then I decided to changed my ambition.

Ratna is more suitable to be as one. As for me, just continue taking shots whenever I feel like it. The best thing is that, I really enjoyed my day with them and it was really fun. Without them, my life would be useless. :) So, I am really thankful.

Not only them, but others too. Got alot of names but better keep it to myself. Aside from that, work is kinda tiring but enjoyable. Sales just started and I am so freaking tired. I really can't wait to work at another outlet. The place is too damn cramp and small! Urgh!

I heard, Bugis Junction going to open Cotton On. Haha! I want to work there! Confirm alot of people will shop over there! :) I really miss working with my old parkway parade staffs! I really miss you all! :(

Hopefully, we all can work together okay. Pray hard. :) school assignments are such a torture. & plus test coming up real soon. Tomorrow I got Event Management Test. I really have no idea but well, let's see how I cope.

& the day after tomorrow will be another test. Oh god! I really need to study hard. I want to go Poly. :) Hehe. Okay, I'm not sure whether tomorrow training I am needed or not. Just wait for the msg.

By the way, I decided to just stop this feeling of mine. Nevertheless, you will always remain in my heart. :) Miss you.

See you all next time k. Goodnight.

stop denying
and stop
pretending.

Before I start, to the above person, I miss you oh so much! :) Hehe. Please make one more gathering k. See youu! It's exhausting to see myself running here and there just for the sake of earning money. Work has not been given me less pressure but in fact adding pressure to it. Same goes to school where you will be busy with piles and piles of projects and assignments.

Work is just so tiring for me. But, all I can do is Relax. Sales will be up tomorrow onwards. Cotton On fans, do drop by to any Cotton On outlets for Sales. :) I have been spending most of my time outdoors rather than indoors. It's tiring, seriously.

I need a break. Even if June holidays were to come, I will be busy with school projects and production. Urgh! I really need a break. Whatever it is, I am glad that holidays are coming soon. So, I will have some break to relieve myself from all the projects that I'm facing.

Nevertheless, I will still do my part for my projects as I know it is so important for my grades. Yes, weather is so freaking hot nowadays. My skin will get darker sooner or later.

Have not been going Sports & Wellness so I decided to be a good student and turn up for S & W. How I hate S & W so much, still attendance is compulsory. I'm working tomorrow. Am able to meet Faizal.

A mat rep and a little bit plum who is not that good looking. I wonder whether Zan told me just now is really true. :) Haha. I shall see it for myself tomorrow. Oh yeah, I can't wait for photo shoot! Hehe. :)

By the way, yesterday was the best! Let's do it again, shall we? Haha. p/s, I have started to miss you when you're not around. Should I move on or should I reminisce about the past? I wonder.

sooner or
later you
are leaving.

Hello.

Sometimes in life, you tend to smile alot. But actually behind those smiles, hid your tears. Tears that no one ever saw before. You show the other side of you just not to let others know your problems.

You look happy but actually in fact, you are crying. Crying inside your heart. Not letting people discover it. I have been through all that alot of times. & it hurts badly. It is something you hold back for so long until you realised you needed somebody to help you along the way.

You might think that you are independent cause you did not let others know about your situation but in fact you are weak. Doing all this, will lead you to nowhere. I did that too. I tend to hide certain facts/things from others. Even my family members.

Is not that I don't trust them or I don't have the guts too, it is just that I want to deal this on my own. I know it is wrong to keep certain things from my family but I don't want to put a huge burden on them. It is something personal.

Dear God, punish me for my bad deeds but don't punish me for something I did that is against parents permission. Its wrong but I don't wish to trouble them. Friends told me it is not a sin but I felt bad.

But the harsh words you told me just now, makes me want to cry. Mummy, I know you don't like us to lie to you. It is not a lie. It is just something I do for my own good. I know I should not keep things from you but people make mistakes.

I am really sorry for what I did. I know you don't wish history to repeat itself. But when you told me that I'm worse than my siblings, my tears start to drop. Just because of one mistake, you judge me without knowing the real situation I'm facing.

After so much hard work I put in, you hurt my feelings. I studied hard for the sake of going Poly. & I really want to. Yes, I might be slow in things but I have ambition, you see. If you really think I'm useless, I think I should just run away from home for the time being.

Let you calm down first. & if you have sort things out, maybe I should return home. Once again, I'm sorry. :(

words means
nothing to
me anymore.

Hello Hello.

Been busy with school and stuff. Rehearsal is getting serious now. No more playing. Got to buck up my character. Urgh! Fund raising thing is going okay. The weather is getting from bad to worse. So unpredictable.

Nowadays, weather is so hot. Can get heat stroke sey! :) haha. Meeting again tomorrow for the Games leader. Urgh! Must bring laptop. I am so tired of meetings. But, what to do. Just got to attend the meeting.

Alright, school has been alright. Not less, not more. Just average. I am so tired. I felt that my whole body is aching. Is this the sign that I am getting old? I don't know. I am still young. Haha.

I love the picture above. So, unique! & the pose. haha. So natural. :) I don't know why but I really can't made up my mind. At times, I wish to let you go but the feelings came inevitably. Nothing can stop it at all.

I am afraid that I am the only one hoping for a miracle to happen. Maybe, this is Test from God. I should just accept it with open arms. Urgh. This feelings is so urgh! Guess wad, July is ending soon.

June is coming and I hope that it will be a great month to start with. Projects are a Killer and exams are around the Corner. Haha. Got to study hard. :) Yeah!

I'm nervous and anxious. How many more days left. Mimi. Hurry, practice okay. I'm sure we can do it. All the best to both of us. Alright then, goodnight. :) Love you all!

let time
heal your
wound.

Hello Hello.

Just got back from rehearsal. Was a tiring day for me. School has been a torture lately and meetings are just driving me insane! Urgh! Projects are halfway done. Thank God, my laptop already have the Microsoft Word. Thanks to Ilah! :)

Yeah! Going to get Cotton On Voucher! Haha. Time to shop for new clothes and shorts! Woohoo! I have been sleeping lately for the past how many weeks. Oh God. So damn tired. Maybe I should start on coming home early and sleep early but time don't allow me to.

Busy with rehearsals, projects and work. I guess, my routine will still be the same. I need another job so that I can settle my bills immediately. Please, just give me one more job okay. :) CA is coming up real soon.

Time for me to flip through the books and start revising now. No time to delay. :) I really need to buck up on certain things. Event Management, I really need to self study. It is a must. Tourism, hopefully whatever that Mr Aw taught, will be useful. Office Admin, Thank God Ms Kathy went through those that is important.

Right now, all I need is to relax and calm down. :) I can do it. For sure! All the best Faiz. Oh by the way, thank you. Those words you said the other day, blown me away. :) I really cannot believe what you had said to me but still thank you.

& the hug. I wish I could hug you longer. For now, just stay. Stay the way it is. Good night people! Love you all.

you are
just perfect
to me.

Hello Hello.

In less than 2 months, everything gonna be different. It is the time to get serious and be serious. My first ever Musical play in a Malay Production. I'm so thankful that I am given a chance to show my talent.

Although, I am not really good in Malay, but still I decided to give it a try. Acting has been my passion since Secondary School but not my ambition. :) Yes, it has never been my Ambition. To be honest, I always wanted to be a Teacher. See how it goes okay. :)

Rehearsals has been great. Tough but awesome. :) Really can't wait for the show! :) I think I got to finish up memorising my Act 2 lines. Seriously, I have no time to read through my lines. Its okay, when there's a will, there's a way. :)

Variasian Peeps!

2 more months guys and gals! Give all you can okay! I am so happy to be in this group. All of you are nice people and I'm sure we can work together. :) Although we faced ups and downs, but that's part and parcel of life.

To those who are sick, do take care of your health okay. Drink lots and lots of water. :) Get well soon okay. :) Hehe.

That's all. Goodnight! See you all soon. LOVES!


stay together
with me
tonight.

Dear Classmates.

I miss you all like freaking much. Time flies so fast and all us are busy with our own lives. I know its hard to even meet up for drinks or hang out again. Some of you are going NS and even some of you are in NS.

Words can't describe how I really miss you all and I do believe that we can meet up sooner or later. Although we do face ups and downs together, we are still friends and staying strong together. I won't let go of our friendship. No one can separate us. & I really mean it.

I miss the laughter, the nonsense, the hang outs, the fun, the games we had, the craziness and everything! I really do not regret being with you all for the past 4 years in Secondary School. I really enjoyed all the times we had together.

Oh God, how I wish I could turn back the time and restart all over again. The happiness and the unhappiness we shared. It is truly amazing how we can get so close to each other. Don't worry, all of you will always remain in my heart forever.

Do meet up soon, okay. Real soon. :) Muhd Faiz.

just like
how I
miss yesterday.

Hello Hello.

My friends and I were so bored that we did this. Haha. Above picture is our creation. :) Haha. Well, nice right? I am so happy just now that I got a chance to actually explore TP. Thanks Ratna! :) Hehe. School was kinda lenient towards us. Fund raising thing will be conducting on next Thursday.

Had our test and not sure how much will I get this time. Haha. Just hoping for the best. As soon as school ends, headed myself back home and get myself prepared and meet Ratna. Supposed to meet Asyraf at Woodlands first but due to the heavy rain, I decided to meet him later. :)

Projects are just a burden to me. Urgh! I need help, seriously. Rehearsal were okay. had our scene practice and luckily I gave all out just now. :) A sigh of relief. Tomorrow will be another long day for me. Haha. :)

Although I envy those in Poly, I still pity them. They have like alot of assignments and it is like clashing with one another. Oh my god. I'm trying to put myself in their shoes and I know it is so damn stressful. JIA YOU Ratna, Syirah, Ain and Hafiz Hussin. :)

I cannot believe what I heard earlier this morning. I am so shocked that my expression totally went blank for a moment. How could you be so cruel as to even back stab your own friend despite that she has been tolerating you for quite some time? She has been nice to you and this is how you repay her? Oh my god. Luckily I was not her. I mean, how could you even said that?

Don't use your disability for sympathy. & now I know why people are keeping a distance away from you. It is the way you bring yourself. The way you show yourself to others are just too plain. You keep things to yourself and not let others know what's going on and you tend to keep quiet. How are we supposed to help you?

Please eh. I just hope that you change. That's all. Its for your own good tau. When you told her that this is how you used to back stab your other friend, I am totally shocked! You did that before and you're doing it again? How cruel can you be. Can't believe you are talam dua muka - it means two faced in English.

Enough about you. Just make my heart boiled. Haiz. Well, exams are coming nearer. I need to start my self study now. haha. :) I can't lie anymore! I'm so in love with you! Urgh! Just don't make it stop.

My body is aching like hell & I'm sleepy. Goodnight everyone! :)

such a
fool to
met you.

Hello Hello.

First of all, I just want to say that I am freaking tired of going to and fro the same place all over again and not doing anything. Why did you guys keep on changing the schedule? When I expect it to be what it is, something else crops up. Do you know that bus fares are not cheap nowadays? Gosh, stick to one please.

Alright, my projects are almost completed. Yes, I'm using the word almost because it is still on going and is not yet complete. But thankful cause my workload has decreased a little today. Fund raising was just okay for me. Well, managed to complete my task. Haha.

Okay, school starts as early as 8am tomorrow and I really need to attend the first lesson. Always skip the first lesson. So bad uh. :) I have been thinking long and hard. I know this is my final year in ITE and I have to do my very best to have a place in Poly.

But then, I am scared because I don't know whether I will get the chance to go Poly or not. Sometimes, it worries me alot and I would ended up thinking it for so long. I do and I really want to go Poly. My gpa is not that good enough and I really need to buck up for this term.

I really hope that everything goes the way I plan. :) School has been giving me less pressure but more projects. Haha. I really can't wait for the weekends! Mr Firefighter, meet up soon okay! :)

Oh by the way, I having second thoughts on the person I have a crush on. Urgh! It just hurt me so bad. I do like the person but is like I'm the only one that is really serious into this. I don't want to get false hope. & everything just shattered. Urgh! I hate this kind of feeling. Its like I'm the one that is waiting patiently but ended up getting hurt. We are getting quite well. Just don't end here.

Well, let's just see how it goes and where does it stop at. Haha. :) I'm waiting for good news but is the good news waiting for me? I hope so. I have been eating alot nowadays. I need to lose weight. In less than 2 months, I will be facing a challenge. Hope everything goes smoothly. '

Got to go now. Goodnight. Sweet dreams and take care. :)

rushing out
of time
now.

Hello Hello.

School has been keeping me busy with projects clashing with one another. I'm getting tired of school but still I do come to school. Not that I want to give up, just that I'm so tired. But, just put that aside for a while, shall we? :)

Okay, for now at least I'm able to ease my burden thanks to my group mates who has been kind to me to help me pull through this together. Thank you so much, guys! On a brighter note, I am enjoying myself with my lovely friends in Variasi. :) what else can I ask for? Hehe.

To You - I have been thinking so hard and long. Perhaps, I have already made up my decision. It has been the toughest decision to make. I like you, yes I do. I miss you and I really do. But, I know its pointless for me to continue this one sided love affair. You know, we need two hands to clap and I don't wish to think that I'm the only person that is really into this. For now, let me just see you from far. Its more than enough. :)

Projects deadline are getting closer and I really need to get it done ASAP. Fund raising thing again tomorrow! :) Urgh! I'm just not that into Fund Raising! Haha. I need to get the Microsoft Office CD. I need to finish up my projects.

I can't bear to fail right now. Not anymore. NYP, wait for me okay. Just wait for me. A few more months to go. Just make sure that you will reserve a seat for me. :) I need you. I need to get in POLY. Please, make my dream come true.

Enough for now. Got to go. Goodnight! I'm in love with someone! How? :(

I miss
your smile
like before.

Hello there.

Okay, was tired as usual. Haha. Did not attend my first lesson in school as I was late. Alright, I am always late for the first lesson. Maybe, I am so lazy to attend school? Haha. That aside for a while. Kolej 56 Training is so fun! We got to sing song and have fun together even though there are alot of people absent. Please eh, if you all can't make it, please inform Attiyah in advance. :)

I have not been watching movies for quite some time and I think it is time for me head down to the theatre and watch movies! Might be meeting up Mr Firefighter this Saturday or Sunday! :) Can't wait to see you lah! Now, you're getting much more muscular uh. Haha. Don't action eh!

As I was walking home just now, I wonder what will happen to me in few years to come? Will I get a better job and will I start my own family or will I just continue my studies in University? I don't know. Life is short.

I got to spend my days as much as I can and not to miss anything out. I'm scared. Yes I am. I'm scared of what's gonna happen to me in the future? Time can only tell and I can only wait for it to arrive. :)

The Bottom Line

When the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping.

In Detail

When you find that the going gets tough for you, why not sit back and relax and go spend your time doing shopping. It may helps a little bit and for sure, you will enjoy doing it so. Just spend whatever you can and whenever you can if necessary. I believe you will like it. :)

I'm so tired after going out the whole day. Luckily for me, I have time to rest at home too. Should I go tomorrow? Haha. :) That person might be going. I don't know. We shall see.

& oh yes, for all your information, when I was young, my ambition is to be a Teacher not an Actor. :) & that explains the answer for my quiz at Facebook. Hehe.

Got to go now. Goodnight everyone! Love you all!

a mirror
reflects who
you are.

I feel the urge of changing my blogskin again. Don't know why but this one is kinda cool! :) haha. Love it love it love it! Okay, backtrack. I am pretty much the same old Faiz. Celebrate Mummy's birthday by ordering Canadian Pizza.

Okay, I love the Singapura Special. Awesome to the max! Mum, even if you're full of white hairs or getting old every year, I will still LOVE you the way you are! :) thanks for bringing me up and thanks for everything!

I didn't go to school just now. Was super duper tired. So texted my friend to informed her. Haha, when I woke up at around 3pm plus, I realised that my inbox got 4 messages and it is from her. Sorry eh Ilah.

I was really tired. But, will go to school tomorrow! :) At certain point of time, I do have the feeling of quitting school and just end my studies there. But then, I want to go POLY. & for that dream of mine to come true, I got to show that I really want to study and prove to them that I will achieve good grades.

Yes, it is gonna be tough but everyone faces difficulties in life. Not only me. :) I should be thankful that I have come this far and not giving up. JIA YOU! :) I still believe that, when there's a will, there's a way.

I am pretty much happy with my life now. Projects is killing me but put it aside for a while and let's just say that I'm enjoying my days at work and also with my friends in Variasi. I am glad to be in Variasi. :)

Oh yes, I did quite a number of quizzes in Facebook. Haha. Random. :) Okay uh, got to go. Goodnight everyone. Love you all to pieces!

in my
mind is
you.

Hello Readers!

Okay. I am feeling shagged, tired, lethargic and fatigue. To make it simple, that is what I am feeling now. haha. All in One! Yesterday training was okay. I'm in love with Salsa! :) Hehe. After training headed down to Changi Village Hotel for Hafiz and Mel birthday celebration! I tell you, the room is super duper cosy. :) Haha.

Was really tired cause we rushed to Changi Hotel after our rehearsal. Had chocolate cake and it taste delicious. After such, webcam with Ratna and Hani. Haha. Webcaming with them is so fun! As I was feeling tired and sleepy, I decided to sleep instead. Hafiz Lolita, Abg Khailee, Mimi, Aee, Miminanggal and Mel went hunting at night. So me and Kak Hannah went to sleep.

The next morning, I went to wash my face and rinse my mouth and went back home. It was raining heavily. As I got work, I went home and bath and change clothes and went straight to work. I thought Parkway Parade Cotton On Mega store is already opened but in the end, it was just a temporary shop.

It was so squeezy like hell. There were no men's clothes. Only sell women's clothes. It is just a temporary shop so yeah. I tell you, I can die working at that kind of environment. Customers keeps on coming in and going out. At that point of time, I felt like I wanted to shout at them and tell them to LEAVE! :) Haha.

Okay, maybe not to that extend lah. haha. But seriously, I was not in a good mood just now. I can just scream my lungs out if I wanted to. Okay, work is tiring as usual. I felt like quitting at that moment and just leave.

But for the sake of money, I persevere. :) PERIOD.

Happy Mother's Day to all Mothers! Thank you for being such a Wonderful Mother to me. I love you, Mummy! & yes, Happy Birthday to you! Haha. :) Your birthday is one day after Mother's Day. No wonder you're so special to me. :) LOVE YOU!

Alright, I really feel that I need a long break. Maybe a holiday will do. Shall see how it goes. Okay then, shall end here. Update more soon! :)

Goodnight everyone and sweet dreams! Love you all! :)

let's continue
again shall
we?

I am tired of everything. Yes, everything. Not that I want to complain or what but I am just so tired. Sometimes, I don't even have the energy to wake up in the morning and go to school to study. I rather stay at home & sleep.

But, this is not what I want in life. I want to go Poly and pursue my diploma. That is why, I am trying my very best to get good grades. I would tend to get bored of school but at a point of time I would really enjoy myself in school with friends to joke around with.

Yes, particularly the reason to why I am attending school is because, I got to meet friends and hang out with them. :) But, I do listen to teachers in class. Everyone is complaining that school is getting more and more boring but we should ask ourselves instead to why is it boring. Is it because, you lost interest in studies? Or you don't like the teachers over there?

There are too many answers and questions to why we think we hate school. But, I beg to differ. I don't really hate school. Just that I am sick of flipping through the text book and have to read through the whole sentences that is written on it.

Yes, maybe I am complaining too much about school but then come to think of it, I'm here for two things - To get good grades & go Poly. :) Yes, only this two things. Enough about schools. :)

Okay, I'm pretty much enjoying my drama session but at the same point of time, I'm getting tired. Not tired of acting. Just that I'm tired of going to and fro to the same place all over again. I can't take leave anymore. Schedule is tight. & rehearsals is getting more intensive.

Dear God, I really hope that this production will be a successful one on July. :) I miss the whole bunch of my classmates! As I mentioned before, I don't hate anyone of them but we are not in good terms. :)

But its okay. I don't really mind. PERIOD. Okay, off to bed now. See you all soon!

Tomorrow rehearsal at Bukit Batok. Urgh! A long journey again. :) Goodnight!

its you
that makes
things changed.

Let me share a little of what happened in my life right now.

Today, was a waste of my time going back to school just for the fund raising thing. As I mentioned at my previous post, that I don't know what's going on and so. From there, Ilah and I were clueless with the word HUH on our foreheads.

Yes, we are not blaming others for what happened today. Just got to blame ourselves for not be attentive in class. But to put it in good sentence, I rather said may not be attentive. :) Despite that, we did came to school and did help a little bit by going around asking people to buy stuffs.

This fund raising thing is for the Sentosa Event which we must organise for the new intakes. :) Yes, its killing me like hell! I'm not in the mood to actually organise a real event for them cause I'm so busy with other stuffs too. Like my commitment to work, school and production.

With another workload to carry, I'm dying soon. Yes, its not easy in Higher Nitec compared to Nitec. But, if I were to join Poly next year, it would be more worse than this, so no use for me to complain much about my school life. PERIOD.

However, despite all this stressfulness I'm facing, I'm still surviving and is happy with my life. To be honest, I am really grateful to those that still regard me as a friend and still accept me for who I am. :)

Because of them, I am still strong and is able to face any obstacles that may strike me. Like the saying goes, No matter how tough the going is, I won't give up. Particularly, in everything. Alright, so far I'm happy with what I have now.

Oh by the way, Ilah, don't give up okay. I'm sure you can face this problem of yours. Yes, I know its hard for you. Same goes to me. As long as we persevere, I believe that we could be able to make it. Just give all the best you can and believe in yourself. :)

To end this post of mine, I just want to say to you all that - don't give up that easily. the ladder of success may not be easy but as long as you put your heart and mind to it, I'm sure you will be able to reach your goals. :)

Goodnight everyone. Have a good sleep. Love you all!

just a
thought of
you again.

Reflections on the water,
I share with you on my blank paper.
Call out your name as if I don't know you,
or I've had you replaced.

Were you real, and were you here?
What is this feeling that I fear?
Open up and make things clear,
did you love me?

Screaming aloud won't help but it makes me feel better,
nothing compares to this.
Why are we still here shouldn't we have moved,
and still we stay,
I cannot be with you,
let me go.

The scars upon your head,
pierce through my soul yet I can't love you.
The way that you love me,
why can't you see that like this,
we won't last.

Trust me we will be just fine,
let go of this feeling you feign inside.
I know in just a matter of time,
we'll be fine.



I love this song plus the lyrics. It was one of the best song I ever heard. :) Just got the urge to blog again and type out the lyrics here. :)

Maybe one day, I would want to write a lyrics. Haha. I know it is not easy but, believe in myself and I'm sure I can do it! :) hehe. Okay lah, just wanna type out the lyrics, nothing much.

Okay goodnight everyone! Have a good sleep okay! :)

p/s; I really have no freaking idea about tomorrow fund raising. :( urgh! Its killing me!

Dear Diary.

Haha. Went to school and was late for lecture class. Haha. Thanks to Ilah lah. She always late. Okay, not always but almost everyday. :) Hehe. Okay, someone came up to me and say, Faiz, you slim alot. Haha.

Okay, should I take it as a compliment or a sarcastic remark? Haha. I slim alot? You must be dreaming. I still got fats in my body and I'm still not in a good shape. But, thanks anyway. Appreciate it. Because of that, you make me happy. Haha. :)

Backtrack, I am enjoying school so far. Not that I want to, but yes I am really enjoying the lesson. But when it comes to Event Management, I will tend to get tired easily. :) Haha. Oh yes, I drank alot today. Not only today but everyday. Maybe I need more water than food. Haha.

I have no freaking idea on what's gonna happen tomorrow. There is no class but need to come back for some fund raising thing. I'm lost, confused and blur. :) I need a smack on my head to go back to normal. :)

Projects after projects. Oh Sharks! Yes, on the bright side I do enjoy projects but then on the other side, projects are a KILLER! Yes, it is a KILLER! When you're doing a group project, you got to crack those brain of yours thinking of what to write and find informations on it.

It is so troublesome but luckily it is a group project rather than you doing it yourself with only one brain to think. That's pure pathetic! :) I'm so hyper today in class. Haha. Not sure why. Maybe because it is Wednesday! Haha. Lame!

Alright, I want to be happy go lucky person. I want to be as happy as I can be. & at times, I will. Trust me, if you were to hang out with me, you know how hyper active I can be.

Oh before I forget, my handphone died on me yesterday night! Yes, it died on me! When I got back home from rehearsal, my phone does not work. The touch screen is spoiled. & now I'm using my brother's Nokia phone.

I need to buy a new hp ASAP. Haha. :) Seriously, I'm broke. Okay, I got to go and find new job as I'm still on my leave. Not sure when will I start working back at Cotton On. Damn, I miss working life! Haha. :)

Yes. Dance tomorrow and I'm freaking happy! Can't wait for that. Haha. I'm craving for Popeye's. Been waiting to eat that. Well, got to go now. Nothing much to blog about.

Take care everyone. God bless you all! :) LOVES!

I'm always
hyperactive to
the max!

Dear Diary.

I had an awesome day in school. Although, class ends slightly early, still I got to meet my best friend, Ilah. Haha. Everyday when we meet, we surely laugh like mad and talk crap. :) that's the thing we like to do.

Okay, to my dearest daughter, Aida. Haha. Not my real daughter lah just something I know, she know. You all don't know. Hehe. Okay, daddy is not emo just that got some probs going on now. Daddy is still happy as always and so fortunate to have you as my daughter. Be good okay. You and your younger sister, do take care.

I will see you tomorrow. :) Backtrack, I know school has giving me lots and lots of pressure lately. I'm coping up with my stress now. Projects are like killing me. My group mates and I are still discussing on our projects. & to do an Event for the new intake Business Admin, is giving more headaches to me. Urgh!

Tomorrow is another day for school. & ends at 5pm. I'm going to rehearsal tomorrow. Yes, I am. Not that I want to but seriously I can't take leave frm Variasi anymore. Intensive training is coming real soon and tomorrow got my scene. I got to be there for the blockings. :)

I'm in the mood to go shopping but I'm broke. Pay day is coming soon! 2 days more! :) Haha. But, I got to pay my bills. Sharks! :) I got to go now. Wanna eat. Very hungry. Blog soon! :)

let's rearrange
the song
again.

Dear Diary.

I'm feeling much better now. So much relieved. Its like I can feel the air once again and breathe normally. Perhaps, its a good thing for me. Yes, it is a good thing and I love it. :) tomorrow school starts at 8am. Well, I know it is damn early but then my class ends early as well. Haha.

I love Monday and Thursday. :) the reason because, school ends very early and I can spend the rest of the time at home or going out with friends. Excluding Friday, where all schools ends very early. :)

My appetite gained back a week ago. Haha. & I have been craving for lots and lots of foods. But, I want to lose weight. I got to. I need to shed those fats inside my body and make sure I lose 3 kg a month. Haha.

I'm very much in love with dancing. I don't know why but I just love to dance! Probably because, the Musical that I'm in requires me to dance and I'm always ready for it. Haha. I'm so random today.

Sometimes, I can be very happy and hyperactive. Sometimes, I will tend to be so emotional and sensitive. LOL. just for your information lah. Oh yes, my pay is coming in very soon! :) 3 more days and my pay will come. :)

I have no idea where will I be working at yet. I'm still on leave till further notice. So to all my friends who want discount, Wait for my call/sms. I will inform you all once I find out my working outlet. :)

p/s; the song that I have been searching for, finally I got it! Haha. Yes, I have the song that I want. Cool uh. :)

Mimi, think positive okay. I know who you love most. I understand that it is difficult for you to erase your past as you have been in that kind of situation before. But trust me, if you believe in him and believe in yourself, history won't repeat itself.

As a friend I can only lend you a helping hand and give you advice but in the end you are the one that make decision. Choose wisely. :) Miss you lah & see you soon! :)

To my both wonderful friends : Congrats, on getting through the next round for Anugerah. Wish you all the best in the second round. :)

I have nothing much to talk about. Okay, got to go now. I'm tired. Goodnight! :)

washing my
hands off
you.

Dear Diary.

I can't really describe about today's training. Not really in the mood to talk about it. Let's just say that I do enjoy a little bit here and there but not really exciting. PERIOD. :) After which, headed myself down to Woodlands together with Abg Khailee, Kak Hannah, Miminanggal, Hafiz Lolita, Mimi, Ratna and Aee. :)

Yes, being with them is like my close family. They simply makes me laugh like one mad person and it was a nice hang out with them. :) Hang out more often okay. Hehe. Basically, I have no plans for tomorrow as it will be a Family Day so if I'm not wrong, spending my time with my siblings to my Auntie House. :)

It has been such a while since I really spend my quality and most precious time with my Family. & tomorrow shall be the day for sure. Haha. I'm a happy person actually. I really love my family. I love you MUM! :)

Alright, not coming for Tuesday rehearsal as school ends late and I have projects to do. Will be back on Thursday, yeah. :)

To you - I don't know why but I have this feeling that I don't wish to bother about you and your personal lives again. & I think I will just take it as if you are just someone that I know for a second and the next day just a stranger to me. I have nothing to do with you anymore and you have nothing to do with me anymore. I don't hate you but I think I have enough. PERIOD.

Moving on. I have been spending most of my time outside and Mummy is angry at me. haha. Sorry lah Mummy. I love you, okay! :) This term, will be the busiest term for me as I have like 5 projects with test and exams coming up soon. I'm going crazy, in any minute which I don't wish that to happen.

But now, I just want to sort things through. Need to think what I really want in life and my goals. Future is in my hand, now. If there is an opportunity for me, I will just grab it. :) I shall do just that.

Nothing much to talk about my life. Well, I guess that's it. Got to go now.

Take care everyone. Goodnight and sweet dreams. Love you all! :)

in silent,
I leave
you behind.

Dear Diary.

Training was so awesome today and yesterday. Was really great! I'm in love with dancing now. Not that I wanna dance but then dancing makes me lose weight! Haha. :) Awesome right! :) Okay, supposedly want to blog yesterday but was very tired. :)

Okay, school has been kinda fun actually. I like doing projects with my group mates and discuss about our next plan. I really can't wait to get out from that school. To be honest, I'm excited for Poly next year. Hoping for a vacancy for me. Reserve for me one seat, NYP. :) Hehe.

Okay, exams, test, projects are clashing with one another and with my rehearsals on going plus working, I need to plan for my own schedule next time. Must know how to prioritize it. I have been cutting on foods, expenses and such. Now, I'm like super duper broke.

I got some unpaid bills to settle and my pay is not in yet. 6th May 09, hurry! :) I have been coming home late for the past few days with tired face and indescribable mood. I'm so shagged and I feel like my bones about to crack, in any minute of time.

But, doing those dance moves make me awake. I'm not really active in my CCA nowadays. Perhaps, I need a break for now. Studies are much more important but then CCA helps to increase our gpa. :) Exams is in 4 months time and I really hope that I will get better grades.

There will be rehearsal tomorrow. Gosh, I'm so tired. Alright, nothing else to blog about. I must be home early tomorrow before Mum gets angry. Got to go now.

See you all soon. Take care everyone & goodnight! :)

when I'm
lonely you
call me up.