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I came to realised that it was a misunderstanding after all. After thinking for so long, I believe that no one's at fault. Maybe, a little sensitive issue that makes the problem bigger. Right now, I shall just remain quiet.

Okay. Yesterday full dress rehearsal was the BEST. Although how tired I was, still I enjoyed it very much. After the training, headed down to the Basketball court for some relaxing session with Hani, Aidil, Aida, Nadzirah, Asyraf, Hanis, Rizal, Uyun, Ilah, Taufiq, Luqman and Atiiyah.

It was an unforgettable night yesterday. We had so much fun playing games and eating plus chatting with each other. How I wish we could stay longer but the time was moving quite fast so decided to end it early. The rest of them went home first leaving me, Aidil and Nadzirah.

We decided to stay a little while before heading ourselves to the MRT station. Haha. It was fun though.

Kolej 56 The Musical is starting real soon. Can't wait for the BIG Day. I am sure that everyone is looking forward for that. Same goes for me, I can't wait for what's gonna happen on that day itself.

Press conference is on this coming Sunday. Woohoo!

Finally, after 1 week of going out, I have the time to stay at home and relax. How comfortable it is. School is opening next week and I'm still on Holiday mood.

Projects are almost complete. I can't wait to meet up Hubert tomorrow! Haha.

Okay lah, got to go now. Take care everyone!

p/s, it takes two hands to clap.

I don't know what makes you unhappy or what makes you really stress. Is it because you are cooped up with a lot of things to do? Hey, everyone else are stress. Sometimes, I think I should just let you be for the time being.

Moving On. Preview is in less than 11 hours. Eventhough I'm not involve, it is making me nervous like hell. Whatever it is, wish us all the luck okay. :)

Let's talk about my life, shall we?

For now, my life is totally going up and down. Like a rollercoaster. When you gets so excited, it will go up but eventually it will go down too. I have gone through all the hardships in my life.

Sometimes, I wish to give up. Give up everything and forget about my dreams and all. But, I came to realised that, we live once. Why not treasure our life when we are still living in this world.

& because of that, I decided to pull through. Going through the obstacles alone is indeed scary but I got friends behind my back. & no matter what, I'm not looking back at all.

I may not have everything that I want but I'm glad that I am contented with things that makes me go on in life and friends that gave me will to be strong. PERIOD.

I got to go to sleep soon. Must report at Orchard by 8.30am.

To all my friends out there, don't give up hope. Keep on going forward. :)

p/s, I can't even bring myself to look at you.

everything changes
for a
better reason.

Yes people, I am back! Haha. Well, about yesterday I didn't get to go through the next round. However, I am not sad, because I just want to give it a try. Well, maybe it was not my luck. :)

Moving on. After the audition, went to One Fullerton to hang out with friends. Drank at Starbucks and started laughing, chatting playing name games. It was absolutely fun! Finally, got to meet Mardiana! Miss her like so much.

Hang out soon alright. Okay, after that headed to Bukit Batok as Asyraf needs to collect something. I was like so freaking shagged the whole day. Keeps on washing my face. Haha. & headed myself to rehearsal with Ana.

Rehearsal was so damn good. Preview is in 3 days time. I really hope everything goes smoothly on that day. I am still shagged but then I just want to blog.

Projects are still driving me insane. On the contrary, I am happy because I got friends to share my problems with. Thanks to them that I am still very much excited about school no matter how bored it is.

Anyway, I still want to go to Poly. To turn my dream into a reality, I got to persevere. Right now, I am still very much pleased with what I am having now.

Rehearsals everyday is a torture but seeing my drama friends and Director, I am always ready for it. :) Thanks Abg Hamzah for this kind of opportunity you have given me.

By the way, I am very much delighted that you show concern towards me but however I know that this friendship will always remain as it is. Once again, thank you.

I'm going off now. Take care everyone. God bless you all.

p/s, a little care will do.

so I
sail my
way on.

I'm still awake. Waiting for the time to strike 4am. I'm anxious, nervous and excited. I don't know. Words can't simply describe how I feel right now. Looking at my picture above, I believe that I am still happy. Haha.

This is my very first time. So, the feeling comes naturally. I would really love to get through the next round and make sure that I do my family and my friends proud. I may not sound as good as Taufik Batisah or Hady Mirza but I have the passion in it.

I believe that if you sing with a passion, the judges or whoever will be touched by it. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow but meeting the judges is something I'm looking forward to but yet scared.

I really hope that I will get a chance to showcase my talent in front of the judges and of course audiences. :)

Moving on. I am so tired but I can't sleep. Maybe because, I'm excited about tomorrow. Haha. Went to BBE to meet up with my drama friends. I really sure that Asyraf can sing better than just now.

Asyraf, you know that you will always have me to support you. Even Ratna. :) We will support you all the way! :) Oh yeah, I don't know why people like to bitch about other people.

To me, it is something silly or childish. If you have the guts to talk about others behind their back, why not face them and tell them straight to their faces rather than hiding yourself behind the closet.

What's wrong with other people work that you got to bitch about? If you think yours is better, than do it. Action speaks louder than words. If you think you have nothing better to talk about, I suggest you go for some gossiping sessions with the old folks. I think they are bored talking to themselves.

Have fun with them okay. Some people just don't know how to appreciate other people's work.

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Alright. I am craving for Ice Cream and I don't know why. Its 3am. 1 more hour to get myself prepared and such.

For your information, I'm at Ratna's house. Still blogging and will always blog. If only have some good news to share. Bad news, I will keep it to myself for time being. :)

I am sleepy but controlling myself to stay awake. I can't go to sleep cause if I sleep, I will wake up late & miss tomorrow's audition which in fact I do not want that to happen.

Okay then, wish me all the luck in the world okay people. Goodnight! May God bless all of you. :)

p/s, a sigh of relief, for now.

humpty dumpty
set on
the wall.

The above picture is something which my friend and I were carrying my another friend to tie a rope around the lamp. How funny can that be? With hundreds of people watching us, I'm sure they have their last laugh.

Its 2am now. But I'm still awake. Perhaps, it is just me. I can't sleep that early anymore. The cycle changes once you are getting older. Maybe, its a bad sign but can't blame me, right?

I'm still wondering. Wondering about how's my life is gonna be when I grow up. What do I really want in the future. It keeps on playing on my mind. Because of this, I'm unable to sleep.

So, why now? Why must I think about my future now when I'm still young. Mum has been nagging. Nagging about how we spend our lives unnecessarily. Wasting our time doing things that is not worth doing.

Mum. My passion is in the arts. & I love Acting. No matter how useless it sound, I'm still gonna live up to my dreams. I know that you are against my decision. But if I can respect your decision to find a new guy in your life, why can't you respect my decision to act?

I really love acting. Maybe, you just don't know how excited I am to be able to get such a role now. Sorry if I neglect you the past few weeks. I promise that whatever I'm doing now, will bring benefits to you and our family.

Mum, I love you like I always do. :)

Moving on. Its gonna be Tuesday and I'm freaking excited about it! I really hope that I can make it to the next round. Hoping for a miracle to happen.

Thanks Ilah for putting the OAM project into one document. Don't worry about it. I will try to finish up whatever that is left for me to do so.
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My post for now is going to be random. Read it if you want to. :)

I don't know about you but I have a strong feeling that it may just happen. I keep on thinking about what's the consequences may be if we were to make a move. I know that its wrong for me to think this way but I just want you to know that if you're happy, I will be happy for you.

What I hope is that, you won't forget me okay. I will always be here for you. :)
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Backtrack. I can't wait to see Mardiana on Tuesday. Thanks to whoever that will be coming to support me. I hope I won't disappoint you guys. I really want to make my family proud! :)

Okay, its time for me to head to bed now. :) I'm sleepy and before mum nags at me again, I shall go to sleep. Haha. :) goodnight!

p/s, I can't wait for tomorrow!

a journey
for you
and me.

What's wrong with me? Sleeping late at night and not waking up early in the morning. I guess it is my same old routine, yet again.

I'm exhausted but saying those words is useless and meaningless for me. To be exact, I should blame myself because I make myself exhausted without realising it. Rehearsal was alright for me.

Had some problems here and there but overall it was okay. Preview is starting next Saturday. Oh my god. How time flies so fast. I really can't wait for the show to start.

Alright, I guess the "G" understands what I meant for my previous post. Thanks for leaving your comment behind but unfortunately I find it redundant to put it so I decided to delete that junk out of my tagboard.

Whatever it is, thank you for dropping by. No worries, I won't hate you for that. :) Where was I?

Oh yeah, preview is coming real soon. Although, I'm not involve but I'm still one of the cast for the show so I feel a little bit nervous about it.

I am so in love with salsa but only with that song. Haha. Hafiz Husin makes me laugh the whole day during training. Teaching him salsa was a little bit difficult cause he can't loosen up his body.

Nevertheless, that was such a great improvement from you. Hoping for more but I guess you are just too tired to continue on the steps. Well, see you next time for more salsa okay.

Finally, the person I long to see, came for training today. I was not the only one that was excited to see him but I guess Ana was in total high mood just now. :) Maybe, she misses him too much.

I really got to find a time for me to discuss with my group members regarding our projects. Or else, back to me and Ilah that will finish up those workloads with another burden to carry. Seriously not a good thing for me but as a Leader, I got to finish up those work ASAP.

I'm so shagged right now. Alright, time for me to head myself on my bed and sleep till the morning rise. Don't wake me up tomorrow cause I will wake myself up instead.

Goodnight everyone. 2 more days. I'm so prepared! :)

p/s, I am happy if you're happy. My decision is final.

stay a
little while
for me.

When at a certain point of time you realised that you no longer have the will to carry on, just pray hard that everything goes right. Cause at the end of the day, the credit goes to you.

Alright, I don't know why in this kind of World there will be a hate tagger. If you want to tag me, by all means please. But, simply leave down your name so I know who you are. Why identify yourself as G or whatsoever?

If your parents have already given you a name, used it. I really don't like people to tag at my blog or any of my friends blog without putting down their names behind. That shows you are a coward or simply no guts to tell me who the hell you are.

To G, sorry to disappoint you but my decision to quit my old job is not because of Singapore Idol or whatsoever. It is because that I have another job so I decided to quit my old job. I'm having two jobs now so I guess its time for me to leave either one of them.

I hope I have made this clear to you. If you want to tag, please leave down your name okay. Or else I swear that I gonna report spam.

Backtrack. Production meeting is so stressful. There's alot of things need to be done ASAP. So much things, so little time. I seriously hope that everything will go smoothly. :) I got meeting at 2pm tomorrow and off to rehearsal which starts at 4pm.

You guys have no idea how exhausted I am right now. With projects hanging, I swear I need a long break for everything to be complete. School is starting real soon, which in fact I am so not looking forward.

I'm still on a holiday mood. Urgh! Well whatever it is, reality check alright! :)

p/s, let's make this getaway a memorable one. :)

a day
or two
reminds me
of you.

I'm still feeling exhausted after such a long weeks out without staying at home. The feeling of resting at home is just Heaven. :) Never felt this good before. However, I enjoyed the salsa till I didn't notice someone took a candid picture of me. How great. Haha!

Training was awesome despite not full attendance. Preview is coming soon and I hope everything will go smoothly. :) I'm freaking tired and it is indescribable. I just want to stay at home and relax my mind.

Projects are still driving me insane although school is not open yet. Due dates are coming nearer and I'm struggling my way out. I have no idea what's going to happen to my projects but I will try my very best to finish everything up within the deadlines. :)

Alright, rehearsals is getting much better. Tiring yet fun. Second Audition for Singapore Idol is on the 23rd June. I'm nervous, anxious but seriously ready. So which one should I avoid? Urgh! Never felt this kind of feelings before.

I am missing someone so badly. I don't know why but feelings just came by naturally. Now I know who is Bonc Monk. Haha! Got production meeting tomorrow! Yahoo! I am so hungry but there's no food at home.

I want to eat scrambled eggs with Baked Beans tomorrow morning. Woohoo!

p/s, I am so ready for the getaway. :) are you?

I'm exhausted,
shagged and
seriously tired.

Photoshoot was awesome like to the max although there are some cock up. :) Was so tired that I almost fell asleep while waiting for my turn. I don't know why but I'm getting so tired nowadays.

Maybe its my fault for staying up too late. Got to change my routine. Anyway, Sentosa Event was a successful one. Tired and tired and tired. It was like one hell of an amazing race for the new intakes. Congrats to the 3 winners! Pictures are not with me. Will upload once I got it.

I changed my blogskin. Yes, again. :) haha. Once is never enough. Heard that quote before? From somewhere. Can't remember. Haha. Alright, now am having holidays but I would not want to say is a Holiday. More like a term break. :)

Above pictures are the photoshoot that was taken last Sunday (14 June 2009). Tomorrow will be another hectic day with rehearsal going on. Come to think of it, we have less than one month to finish everything up. All the best yeah!

p/s, I had a great day today. Was totally awesome. :) Thanks to Ratna, Abg Afi, Atiiyah. :)

slowly I
decided to
leave you.

This whole month is a total hectic month for me as I will be busy with rehearsals, school event, photoshoot, preview and media. It has been such a while since I felt that busy before. & I really enjoyed it no matter how tired I am.

Yesterday after training, headed to NYP to watch Gentarasa. Not much comment. It was kinda okay lah. It was my first time and I seriously have no comments about it. But maybe it is just too draggy and such.

Moving on. Spent my nights at Mel's house together with Abg Khai, Aee, Hafiz Lopez. I didn't went home as there were no bus. It was a wonderful stay over at Mel's house. :) & on Friday, met up with the Lovelies to eat Seoul Garden.

Okay, not much varieties but still enjoyed it. I love the Ice Cream! :) After such, headed to Esplanade and chill. Took a lot of pictures and really I had a wonderful night. Went to Mustafa Centre for late night shopping.

& after that they send me home. Thanks! :) Photoshoot is over and done with. Rehearsals will be intensive this coming week. Oh my god. I can't wait for the Sentosa Event to end.

Tomorrow got training in school. Urgh! too much things going on my mind now.

the more you treat me nice, the more I will feel different. Is this a sign or something? God, help me.

p/s, can't wait for the getaway on July. Woohoo! :)

a busy
busy busy
busy month.

I have always wanted to be a happy person. Always wanted to smile and be cheerful. But sometimes, it is so hard, just so hard for me to even smile. I know that some people always says that I am bubbly etc.

I am really trying very hard to be accepted by everyone. But sometimes, at a certain point of time, people get bored of you and don't even care about you. Been there done that. If I please this person, the other person feels neglected.

What am I supposed to do? I'm trying my best to win everyone's heart. Trying my best to get in their good books and be their best friend. But, what am I? & why am I doing so much to please you yet you don't even appreciate it?

I'm sorry if I'm not so attentive enough to listen to your long long stories. I am really sorry. Just try to put yourself in my shoes. Try to be me and see how it feels. & one more thing. If you think that I am happy for what I got now, think again. I am not that happy yet.

I have told everyone that I am a sort of person that don't hate people. I don't pick friends. I am neutral. Just go with the flow. But if you don't like the way I am, I am really sorry but is your loss. Not mine. That's all I have to say.

But luckily for me, I have got this crazy people to cheer me up! :) & of course my lovelies! :)

p/s; one more day you're leaving. God, time do flies fast. Be back soon k. We all will be waiting for you, Iskandar. :)

just another
day for
you to stay.

I am still revising on my notes for tomorrow paper. I am super duper stress by looking at the notes itself. Urgh! I really need to score an A. :) Teacher's hope is too high. whatever it is, do wish me good luck for tomorrow! :)

Umar is leaving tomorrow and I can't believe that time do fly fast. Oh no. All the best Umar. :) Iskandar, sorry eh if I go and upload that picture of yours. SEXY wad your pose. Haha. Anyway, can't wait for Friday. Meeting up with lovelies. :) Oh my god. Hehe.

Kak Hannah, remember what I said. You are not jahat but nakal. :) haha. LOVE You! :) By the way meet up with Ratna for Dinner @ Mad Jack. Simply delicious. :) hehe. Hope you enjoyed it. & went to The Cathay to meet up with Elfie. Hehe.

Rehearsal starts tomorrow onwards. :) I got meeting @ 10.30am tomorrow. Haha. I need my holidays ASAP. :) oh by the way, I miss the above person. :) Let's hang out soon okay. :) Hehe.

It has been so long since we last met. Mardiana, do meet up soon with me. I am missing you already. :) I miss our long hang out session. Miss our Starbucks and everything.

I don't know how to contact you anymore. Heard you changed your number. & so it is difficult for me to contact you. Dear Mardiana, please do contact me ASAP.

I really miss seeing your face. It has been a year plus since we last met. Don't ever forget me okay. I really hope to see you again once more. :) See you real soon okay. Wish you all the best in everything you do. :)

one two
three four
& five.

Guess wad? Yesterday was the most memorable day ever. :) Had rehearsal from 12 pm to 10pm. In the middle of the training, had a farewell session for Umar, Iskandar and Luqman. So gonna miss the three of them so much! :)

Oh by the way, I cried. Yes, I did. I am so happy that they are going NS cause they are gonna experience the real life of serving a nation. As for me, I just don't want to go NS first. I want to go Poly first. :)

Iskandar & Umar. With the both of you gone for NS, I am so gonna miss your bully. Hehe. Iskandar, you have been such a great friend and a brother to me. LOVE you to bits lah. Umar, I really enjoyed those memorable moments we had. Hehe. Seriously, I am so happy to meet you.

Hope that this Friendship won't be the last but the start. Really gonna miss both of you! :) See you both soon. Come down for our Production okay. :) & to Luqman. see you when I see you. Thanks for bringing me in to Variasi. If not, I would not enjoy this much before. :)

For all of your information, I got in through the first round of Singapore Idol Audition. It was a shocking news to me. I really need to try my very best for the second round. I hope I will get in also. Hehe.

Wish me the very best okay people! To those who did not get in, don't give up yet! It is just a beginning for all of you. An experience to be exact. I can't be too happy yet. Still got more audition to go through before the Final 13.

Whatever it is, I am so prepared for whatever obstacles I'm gonna face. :) But, I hope I will get in through all the auditions and make it to the Final 13. Wish me all the luck people.

And thanks to Him, who have given me a chance. Thank you. :) I really need to put away my script and start memorising it.

2 more days to OAM exam. Oh my god. Wish me luck. :)

to say
goodbye is
the hardest.

Sometimes when you feel like you are going to give up, there will always be that one person who stands right in front of you and ask you not to. How wonderful. :) I have been having sleepless nights, (not that I'm dreaming of ghost or wadever shit) just that I am unable to sleep peacefully like I used to back then.

Yes, I know the feeling sucks. Urgh! I have always told myself to stay strong and relax but when comes to affairs of the heart, I'm a weakling. Why must everything comes to me at a time when I decided not to fall in love? It hurts so bad. :( Alright, moving on. Stop being so emotional about this. Really, it is a waste of time.

Backtrack. Work is a bit tiring but somehow fun. Haha. Not that I love to work but when comes to money, we got to sacrifice everything. :) Office Admin CA is next week and I have not yet revise. Got to revise tomorrow. :)

I can't wait for our movie dates. :) Sure, we will have fun! I'm seriously worried about this production. In less than one month, our Musical production gonna start. Oh my god. I'm feeling damn nervous now.

I hope everyone cooperates and do turn up for trainings regularly. :) Alright, I really got nothing say. Take care and goodnight everyone! :)

On top of that, the girl above has been very supportive of me. Thank you Huda. & all the best for your role. :)

p/s, I know how you feel, be strong okay. :)

too much
to think
tonight.

This shows how much I adores our Friendship. I know it will last long & I know it will never break apart. I'm sure we can make this Friendship an everlasting one with love and laughter. :)

p/s, abg khai, don't get the wrong idea. I'm not who you think I am. I am still the same old Faiz. But, just that I'm busy right now. & I'm sure you are too, right? you and the rest will still remain in my heart. take note of that okay. do take care. :)

so tell
me when
to stop.

Before I begin anything, I want to say that I miss watching the above Movie! Hehe. Should watch it online! Yippee!

Backtrack. Work is as per normal. Sales was pretty good today. Thanks to all of us who worked pretty hard today. :) Awesome! I was not really in the mood when I signed in for work. Was more to OMG. The shop was in a mess when I step in. Luckily I managed to clean up the mess left by those uncivilized customers!

But, that's part and parcel of a retailer. Picking up the pieces where the customers left behind. I was pretty annoyed when customers keep on saying that Parkway parade cotton on is so damn small. If it is too small for you, I suggest you to go home and sleep. Don't shop. Did we ever asked you all to shop?! Damn angry sey.

Please. If you want to shop, stop complaining and whining like a small kids. We, the one suffering here not you all. Urgh! Was about to shout but managed to control my anger. Haha. Yes, I agreed with the customers that the place is too small for us to move about but hello, it is TEMPORARY!

Read it, study it and UNDERSTAND it! PERIOD.

But, all I can say is that without customers, sales will not be as good as this. Haha. Whatever it is, thank you CUSTOMERS. :) moving on.

I got school tomorrow morning. Haha. I got to start my old routine back where I used to wake up damn early for school. But now, my laziness has caught up with me. So, should I blame myself for the new me or should I blame the timetable? Haha.

Other than that, I have nothing much to say. Oh yeah, saw Natasha. Haha. Marks N Spencer eh? Wow! :) Shall see you around again. Happy working! I miss Giordano. Can I please come back? :(

I choose
to be
with you.

I came to realised that it was a misunderstanding after all. After thinking for so long, I believe that no one's at fault. Maybe, a little sensitive issue that makes the problem bigger. Right now, I shall just remain quiet.

Okay. Yesterday full dress rehearsal was the BEST. Although how tired I was, still I enjoyed it very much. After the training, headed down to the Basketball court for some relaxing session with Hani, Aidil, Aida, Nadzirah, Asyraf, Hanis, Rizal, Uyun, Ilah, Taufiq, Luqman and Atiiyah.

It was an unforgettable night yesterday. We had so much fun playing games and eating plus chatting with each other. How I wish we could stay longer but the time was moving quite fast so decided to end it early. The rest of them went home first leaving me, Aidil and Nadzirah.

We decided to stay a little while before heading ourselves to the MRT station. Haha. It was fun though.

Kolej 56 The Musical is starting real soon. Can't wait for the BIG Day. I am sure that everyone is looking forward for that. Same goes for me, I can't wait for what's gonna happen on that day itself.

Press conference is on this coming Sunday. Woohoo!

Finally, after 1 week of going out, I have the time to stay at home and relax. How comfortable it is. School is opening next week and I'm still on Holiday mood.

Projects are almost complete. I can't wait to meet up Hubert tomorrow! Haha.

Okay lah, got to go now. Take care everyone!

p/s, it takes two hands to clap.

I don't know what makes you unhappy or what makes you really stress. Is it because you are cooped up with a lot of things to do? Hey, everyone else are stress. Sometimes, I think I should just let you be for the time being.

Moving On. Preview is in less than 11 hours. Eventhough I'm not involve, it is making me nervous like hell. Whatever it is, wish us all the luck okay. :)

Let's talk about my life, shall we?

For now, my life is totally going up and down. Like a rollercoaster. When you gets so excited, it will go up but eventually it will go down too. I have gone through all the hardships in my life.

Sometimes, I wish to give up. Give up everything and forget about my dreams and all. But, I came to realised that, we live once. Why not treasure our life when we are still living in this world.

& because of that, I decided to pull through. Going through the obstacles alone is indeed scary but I got friends behind my back. & no matter what, I'm not looking back at all.

I may not have everything that I want but I'm glad that I am contented with things that makes me go on in life and friends that gave me will to be strong. PERIOD.

I got to go to sleep soon. Must report at Orchard by 8.30am.

To all my friends out there, don't give up hope. Keep on going forward. :)

p/s, I can't even bring myself to look at you.

everything changes
for a
better reason.

Yes people, I am back! Haha. Well, about yesterday I didn't get to go through the next round. However, I am not sad, because I just want to give it a try. Well, maybe it was not my luck. :)

Moving on. After the audition, went to One Fullerton to hang out with friends. Drank at Starbucks and started laughing, chatting playing name games. It was absolutely fun! Finally, got to meet Mardiana! Miss her like so much.

Hang out soon alright. Okay, after that headed to Bukit Batok as Asyraf needs to collect something. I was like so freaking shagged the whole day. Keeps on washing my face. Haha. & headed myself to rehearsal with Ana.

Rehearsal was so damn good. Preview is in 3 days time. I really hope everything goes smoothly on that day. I am still shagged but then I just want to blog.

Projects are still driving me insane. On the contrary, I am happy because I got friends to share my problems with. Thanks to them that I am still very much excited about school no matter how bored it is.

Anyway, I still want to go to Poly. To turn my dream into a reality, I got to persevere. Right now, I am still very much pleased with what I am having now.

Rehearsals everyday is a torture but seeing my drama friends and Director, I am always ready for it. :) Thanks Abg Hamzah for this kind of opportunity you have given me.

By the way, I am very much delighted that you show concern towards me but however I know that this friendship will always remain as it is. Once again, thank you.

I'm going off now. Take care everyone. God bless you all.

p/s, a little care will do.

so I
sail my
way on.

I'm still awake. Waiting for the time to strike 4am. I'm anxious, nervous and excited. I don't know. Words can't simply describe how I feel right now. Looking at my picture above, I believe that I am still happy. Haha.

This is my very first time. So, the feeling comes naturally. I would really love to get through the next round and make sure that I do my family and my friends proud. I may not sound as good as Taufik Batisah or Hady Mirza but I have the passion in it.

I believe that if you sing with a passion, the judges or whoever will be touched by it. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow but meeting the judges is something I'm looking forward to but yet scared.

I really hope that I will get a chance to showcase my talent in front of the judges and of course audiences. :)

Moving on. I am so tired but I can't sleep. Maybe because, I'm excited about tomorrow. Haha. Went to BBE to meet up with my drama friends. I really sure that Asyraf can sing better than just now.

Asyraf, you know that you will always have me to support you. Even Ratna. :) We will support you all the way! :) Oh yeah, I don't know why people like to bitch about other people.

To me, it is something silly or childish. If you have the guts to talk about others behind their back, why not face them and tell them straight to their faces rather than hiding yourself behind the closet.

What's wrong with other people work that you got to bitch about? If you think yours is better, than do it. Action speaks louder than words. If you think you have nothing better to talk about, I suggest you go for some gossiping sessions with the old folks. I think they are bored talking to themselves.

Have fun with them okay. Some people just don't know how to appreciate other people's work.

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Alright. I am craving for Ice Cream and I don't know why. Its 3am. 1 more hour to get myself prepared and such.

For your information, I'm at Ratna's house. Still blogging and will always blog. If only have some good news to share. Bad news, I will keep it to myself for time being. :)

I am sleepy but controlling myself to stay awake. I can't go to sleep cause if I sleep, I will wake up late & miss tomorrow's audition which in fact I do not want that to happen.

Okay then, wish me all the luck in the world okay people. Goodnight! May God bless all of you. :)

p/s, a sigh of relief, for now.

humpty dumpty
set on
the wall.

The above picture is something which my friend and I were carrying my another friend to tie a rope around the lamp. How funny can that be? With hundreds of people watching us, I'm sure they have their last laugh.

Its 2am now. But I'm still awake. Perhaps, it is just me. I can't sleep that early anymore. The cycle changes once you are getting older. Maybe, its a bad sign but can't blame me, right?

I'm still wondering. Wondering about how's my life is gonna be when I grow up. What do I really want in the future. It keeps on playing on my mind. Because of this, I'm unable to sleep.

So, why now? Why must I think about my future now when I'm still young. Mum has been nagging. Nagging about how we spend our lives unnecessarily. Wasting our time doing things that is not worth doing.

Mum. My passion is in the arts. & I love Acting. No matter how useless it sound, I'm still gonna live up to my dreams. I know that you are against my decision. But if I can respect your decision to find a new guy in your life, why can't you respect my decision to act?

I really love acting. Maybe, you just don't know how excited I am to be able to get such a role now. Sorry if I neglect you the past few weeks. I promise that whatever I'm doing now, will bring benefits to you and our family.

Mum, I love you like I always do. :)

Moving on. Its gonna be Tuesday and I'm freaking excited about it! I really hope that I can make it to the next round. Hoping for a miracle to happen.

Thanks Ilah for putting the OAM project into one document. Don't worry about it. I will try to finish up whatever that is left for me to do so.
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My post for now is going to be random. Read it if you want to. :)

I don't know about you but I have a strong feeling that it may just happen. I keep on thinking about what's the consequences may be if we were to make a move. I know that its wrong for me to think this way but I just want you to know that if you're happy, I will be happy for you.

What I hope is that, you won't forget me okay. I will always be here for you. :)
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Backtrack. I can't wait to see Mardiana on Tuesday. Thanks to whoever that will be coming to support me. I hope I won't disappoint you guys. I really want to make my family proud! :)

Okay, its time for me to head to bed now. :) I'm sleepy and before mum nags at me again, I shall go to sleep. Haha. :) goodnight!

p/s, I can't wait for tomorrow!

a journey
for you
and me.

What's wrong with me? Sleeping late at night and not waking up early in the morning. I guess it is my same old routine, yet again.

I'm exhausted but saying those words is useless and meaningless for me. To be exact, I should blame myself because I make myself exhausted without realising it. Rehearsal was alright for me.

Had some problems here and there but overall it was okay. Preview is starting next Saturday. Oh my god. How time flies so fast. I really can't wait for the show to start.

Alright, I guess the "G" understands what I meant for my previous post. Thanks for leaving your comment behind but unfortunately I find it redundant to put it so I decided to delete that junk out of my tagboard.

Whatever it is, thank you for dropping by. No worries, I won't hate you for that. :) Where was I?

Oh yeah, preview is coming real soon. Although, I'm not involve but I'm still one of the cast for the show so I feel a little bit nervous about it.

I am so in love with salsa but only with that song. Haha. Hafiz Husin makes me laugh the whole day during training. Teaching him salsa was a little bit difficult cause he can't loosen up his body.

Nevertheless, that was such a great improvement from you. Hoping for more but I guess you are just too tired to continue on the steps. Well, see you next time for more salsa okay.

Finally, the person I long to see, came for training today. I was not the only one that was excited to see him but I guess Ana was in total high mood just now. :) Maybe, she misses him too much.

I really got to find a time for me to discuss with my group members regarding our projects. Or else, back to me and Ilah that will finish up those workloads with another burden to carry. Seriously not a good thing for me but as a Leader, I got to finish up those work ASAP.

I'm so shagged right now. Alright, time for me to head myself on my bed and sleep till the morning rise. Don't wake me up tomorrow cause I will wake myself up instead.

Goodnight everyone. 2 more days. I'm so prepared! :)

p/s, I am happy if you're happy. My decision is final.

stay a
little while
for me.

When at a certain point of time you realised that you no longer have the will to carry on, just pray hard that everything goes right. Cause at the end of the day, the credit goes to you.

Alright, I don't know why in this kind of World there will be a hate tagger. If you want to tag me, by all means please. But, simply leave down your name so I know who you are. Why identify yourself as G or whatsoever?

If your parents have already given you a name, used it. I really don't like people to tag at my blog or any of my friends blog without putting down their names behind. That shows you are a coward or simply no guts to tell me who the hell you are.

To G, sorry to disappoint you but my decision to quit my old job is not because of Singapore Idol or whatsoever. It is because that I have another job so I decided to quit my old job. I'm having two jobs now so I guess its time for me to leave either one of them.

I hope I have made this clear to you. If you want to tag, please leave down your name okay. Or else I swear that I gonna report spam.

Backtrack. Production meeting is so stressful. There's alot of things need to be done ASAP. So much things, so little time. I seriously hope that everything will go smoothly. :) I got meeting at 2pm tomorrow and off to rehearsal which starts at 4pm.

You guys have no idea how exhausted I am right now. With projects hanging, I swear I need a long break for everything to be complete. School is starting real soon, which in fact I am so not looking forward.

I'm still on a holiday mood. Urgh! Well whatever it is, reality check alright! :)

p/s, let's make this getaway a memorable one. :)

a day
or two
reminds me
of you.

I'm still feeling exhausted after such a long weeks out without staying at home. The feeling of resting at home is just Heaven. :) Never felt this good before. However, I enjoyed the salsa till I didn't notice someone took a candid picture of me. How great. Haha!

Training was awesome despite not full attendance. Preview is coming soon and I hope everything will go smoothly. :) I'm freaking tired and it is indescribable. I just want to stay at home and relax my mind.

Projects are still driving me insane although school is not open yet. Due dates are coming nearer and I'm struggling my way out. I have no idea what's going to happen to my projects but I will try my very best to finish everything up within the deadlines. :)

Alright, rehearsals is getting much better. Tiring yet fun. Second Audition for Singapore Idol is on the 23rd June. I'm nervous, anxious but seriously ready. So which one should I avoid? Urgh! Never felt this kind of feelings before.

I am missing someone so badly. I don't know why but feelings just came by naturally. Now I know who is Bonc Monk. Haha! Got production meeting tomorrow! Yahoo! I am so hungry but there's no food at home.

I want to eat scrambled eggs with Baked Beans tomorrow morning. Woohoo!

p/s, I am so ready for the getaway. :) are you?

I'm exhausted,
shagged and
seriously tired.

Photoshoot was awesome like to the max although there are some cock up. :) Was so tired that I almost fell asleep while waiting for my turn. I don't know why but I'm getting so tired nowadays.

Maybe its my fault for staying up too late. Got to change my routine. Anyway, Sentosa Event was a successful one. Tired and tired and tired. It was like one hell of an amazing race for the new intakes. Congrats to the 3 winners! Pictures are not with me. Will upload once I got it.

I changed my blogskin. Yes, again. :) haha. Once is never enough. Heard that quote before? From somewhere. Can't remember. Haha. Alright, now am having holidays but I would not want to say is a Holiday. More like a term break. :)

Above pictures are the photoshoot that was taken last Sunday (14 June 2009). Tomorrow will be another hectic day with rehearsal going on. Come to think of it, we have less than one month to finish everything up. All the best yeah!

p/s, I had a great day today. Was totally awesome. :) Thanks to Ratna, Abg Afi, Atiiyah. :)

slowly I
decided to
leave you.

This whole month is a total hectic month for me as I will be busy with rehearsals, school event, photoshoot, preview and media. It has been such a while since I felt that busy before. & I really enjoyed it no matter how tired I am.

Yesterday after training, headed to NYP to watch Gentarasa. Not much comment. It was kinda okay lah. It was my first time and I seriously have no comments about it. But maybe it is just too draggy and such.

Moving on. Spent my nights at Mel's house together with Abg Khai, Aee, Hafiz Lopez. I didn't went home as there were no bus. It was a wonderful stay over at Mel's house. :) & on Friday, met up with the Lovelies to eat Seoul Garden.

Okay, not much varieties but still enjoyed it. I love the Ice Cream! :) After such, headed to Esplanade and chill. Took a lot of pictures and really I had a wonderful night. Went to Mustafa Centre for late night shopping.

& after that they send me home. Thanks! :) Photoshoot is over and done with. Rehearsals will be intensive this coming week. Oh my god. I can't wait for the Sentosa Event to end.

Tomorrow got training in school. Urgh! too much things going on my mind now.

the more you treat me nice, the more I will feel different. Is this a sign or something? God, help me.

p/s, can't wait for the getaway on July. Woohoo! :)

a busy
busy busy
busy month.

I have always wanted to be a happy person. Always wanted to smile and be cheerful. But sometimes, it is so hard, just so hard for me to even smile. I know that some people always says that I am bubbly etc.

I am really trying very hard to be accepted by everyone. But sometimes, at a certain point of time, people get bored of you and don't even care about you. Been there done that. If I please this person, the other person feels neglected.

What am I supposed to do? I'm trying my best to win everyone's heart. Trying my best to get in their good books and be their best friend. But, what am I? & why am I doing so much to please you yet you don't even appreciate it?

I'm sorry if I'm not so attentive enough to listen to your long long stories. I am really sorry. Just try to put yourself in my shoes. Try to be me and see how it feels. & one more thing. If you think that I am happy for what I got now, think again. I am not that happy yet.

I have told everyone that I am a sort of person that don't hate people. I don't pick friends. I am neutral. Just go with the flow. But if you don't like the way I am, I am really sorry but is your loss. Not mine. That's all I have to say.

But luckily for me, I have got this crazy people to cheer me up! :) & of course my lovelies! :)

p/s; one more day you're leaving. God, time do flies fast. Be back soon k. We all will be waiting for you, Iskandar. :)

just another
day for
you to stay.

I am still revising on my notes for tomorrow paper. I am super duper stress by looking at the notes itself. Urgh! I really need to score an A. :) Teacher's hope is too high. whatever it is, do wish me good luck for tomorrow! :)

Umar is leaving tomorrow and I can't believe that time do fly fast. Oh no. All the best Umar. :) Iskandar, sorry eh if I go and upload that picture of yours. SEXY wad your pose. Haha. Anyway, can't wait for Friday. Meeting up with lovelies. :) Oh my god. Hehe.

Kak Hannah, remember what I said. You are not jahat but nakal. :) haha. LOVE You! :) By the way meet up with Ratna for Dinner @ Mad Jack. Simply delicious. :) hehe. Hope you enjoyed it. & went to The Cathay to meet up with Elfie. Hehe.

Rehearsal starts tomorrow onwards. :) I got meeting @ 10.30am tomorrow. Haha. I need my holidays ASAP. :) oh by the way, I miss the above person. :) Let's hang out soon okay. :) Hehe.

It has been so long since we last met. Mardiana, do meet up soon with me. I am missing you already. :) I miss our long hang out session. Miss our Starbucks and everything.

I don't know how to contact you anymore. Heard you changed your number. & so it is difficult for me to contact you. Dear Mardiana, please do contact me ASAP.

I really miss seeing your face. It has been a year plus since we last met. Don't ever forget me okay. I really hope to see you again once more. :) See you real soon okay. Wish you all the best in everything you do. :)

one two
three four
& five.

Guess wad? Yesterday was the most memorable day ever. :) Had rehearsal from 12 pm to 10pm. In the middle of the training, had a farewell session for Umar, Iskandar and Luqman. So gonna miss the three of them so much! :)

Oh by the way, I cried. Yes, I did. I am so happy that they are going NS cause they are gonna experience the real life of serving a nation. As for me, I just don't want to go NS first. I want to go Poly first. :)

Iskandar & Umar. With the both of you gone for NS, I am so gonna miss your bully. Hehe. Iskandar, you have been such a great friend and a brother to me. LOVE you to bits lah. Umar, I really enjoyed those memorable moments we had. Hehe. Seriously, I am so happy to meet you.

Hope that this Friendship won't be the last but the start. Really gonna miss both of you! :) See you both soon. Come down for our Production okay. :) & to Luqman. see you when I see you. Thanks for bringing me in to Variasi. If not, I would not enjoy this much before. :)

For all of your information, I got in through the first round of Singapore Idol Audition. It was a shocking news to me. I really need to try my very best for the second round. I hope I will get in also. Hehe.

Wish me the very best okay people! To those who did not get in, don't give up yet! It is just a beginning for all of you. An experience to be exact. I can't be too happy yet. Still got more audition to go through before the Final 13.

Whatever it is, I am so prepared for whatever obstacles I'm gonna face. :) But, I hope I will get in through all the auditions and make it to the Final 13. Wish me all the luck people.

And thanks to Him, who have given me a chance. Thank you. :) I really need to put away my script and start memorising it.

2 more days to OAM exam. Oh my god. Wish me luck. :)

to say
goodbye is
the hardest.

Sometimes when you feel like you are going to give up, there will always be that one person who stands right in front of you and ask you not to. How wonderful. :) I have been having sleepless nights, (not that I'm dreaming of ghost or wadever shit) just that I am unable to sleep peacefully like I used to back then.

Yes, I know the feeling sucks. Urgh! I have always told myself to stay strong and relax but when comes to affairs of the heart, I'm a weakling. Why must everything comes to me at a time when I decided not to fall in love? It hurts so bad. :( Alright, moving on. Stop being so emotional about this. Really, it is a waste of time.

Backtrack. Work is a bit tiring but somehow fun. Haha. Not that I love to work but when comes to money, we got to sacrifice everything. :) Office Admin CA is next week and I have not yet revise. Got to revise tomorrow. :)

I can't wait for our movie dates. :) Sure, we will have fun! I'm seriously worried about this production. In less than one month, our Musical production gonna start. Oh my god. I'm feeling damn nervous now.

I hope everyone cooperates and do turn up for trainings regularly. :) Alright, I really got nothing say. Take care and goodnight everyone! :)

On top of that, the girl above has been very supportive of me. Thank you Huda. & all the best for your role. :)

p/s, I know how you feel, be strong okay. :)

too much
to think
tonight.

This shows how much I adores our Friendship. I know it will last long & I know it will never break apart. I'm sure we can make this Friendship an everlasting one with love and laughter. :)

p/s, abg khai, don't get the wrong idea. I'm not who you think I am. I am still the same old Faiz. But, just that I'm busy right now. & I'm sure you are too, right? you and the rest will still remain in my heart. take note of that okay. do take care. :)

so tell
me when
to stop.

Before I begin anything, I want to say that I miss watching the above Movie! Hehe. Should watch it online! Yippee!

Backtrack. Work is as per normal. Sales was pretty good today. Thanks to all of us who worked pretty hard today. :) Awesome! I was not really in the mood when I signed in for work. Was more to OMG. The shop was in a mess when I step in. Luckily I managed to clean up the mess left by those uncivilized customers!

But, that's part and parcel of a retailer. Picking up the pieces where the customers left behind. I was pretty annoyed when customers keep on saying that Parkway parade cotton on is so damn small. If it is too small for you, I suggest you to go home and sleep. Don't shop. Did we ever asked you all to shop?! Damn angry sey.

Please. If you want to shop, stop complaining and whining like a small kids. We, the one suffering here not you all. Urgh! Was about to shout but managed to control my anger. Haha. Yes, I agreed with the customers that the place is too small for us to move about but hello, it is TEMPORARY!

Read it, study it and UNDERSTAND it! PERIOD.

But, all I can say is that without customers, sales will not be as good as this. Haha. Whatever it is, thank you CUSTOMERS. :) moving on.

I got school tomorrow morning. Haha. I got to start my old routine back where I used to wake up damn early for school. But now, my laziness has caught up with me. So, should I blame myself for the new me or should I blame the timetable? Haha.

Other than that, I have nothing much to say. Oh yeah, saw Natasha. Haha. Marks N Spencer eh? Wow! :) Shall see you around again. Happy working! I miss Giordano. Can I please come back? :(

I choose
to be
with you.