Tell me if time should make a change
Then why do I feel the same?




SAY IT


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The moment you received a good news from a school which you really love to be in, you will go like omg omg omg!

But when you find out there is more than meets the eye, the feeling of being the most happiest person turns into something unexpected, suddenly.

Yes, it happens to me lately after I got the news I was offered a place in NAFA. Not that I am not happy with the result. Thus being offered a place was good enough but then the fees are just the problems to why I'm so moody and suckish.

Imagine yourself struggling and stressing about the fees and everything. How you gonna pay for the 3 years course and who's gonna help you pay it. To add to the burden, I have to take an English language course which cost me $684.80!

When I first saw that big amount of money, I went like omg, are you effing kidding me?! Just because I didn't have O levels, you don't really have to charge me that much right? I was so stressful that I almost decided to withdraw.

But like they said, every problems can be solve so I decided to give Mendaki a call. Thankfully, they will help me with the study loan for the whole 3 years of the course. However, I have to wait for their approval which is in 4 weeks time but time is not on my side.

Next week, payment has to be made. But, NAFA has given me a chance to email them and inform them that I am seeking help from Mendaki and therefore to extend the date of my payment to a later date.

All in all, May wasn't a good month for me and I hope that June will be better! Right now, I shall do all my best to get loan from Mendaki as well as settle my payment as soon as possible.

Guess what? I breakdown when I reached home a few hours just now. It was so awful, really. Sometimes the strongest person has their own weakness. :) Now I'm feeling much better and that's all matters! :)

Will be calling up Mendaki again tomorrow before I head myself to work in the afternoon.

So many things to do in such a short period of time is really stressful. Considered that I'm not one to handle such stress but really, Month of May has been testing my patience alot of time. I shall not admit defeat and shall strive till the end.

JIA YOU, Faiz! Have faith in yourself okay! :)

Goodnight readers. I shall stop venting out my anger at my blog. Happy thoughts, please! Hehe.


if given a chance to,





If you ever lost someone you truly love
Let me hear you say yeah.